Maybe a good talk with your parents will help you. If they say nothing but the fact that they hate that you're leaving then..I mean..

Theres really no way to escape the depression. It seems you've got a big heart and a strong compassion for people and peoples feelings and emotions....Im the same way...

It kind of gets in the way when making big decisions such as the one you are going through...

AND...since you ARE the way you ARE....caring....it would be almost wrong to desensitize yourself to the situation...you will always care for your brothers and family...

I mean....I guess the only thing you can do is try to get your mind on the future and what you plan to accomplish

Whatever happens, good luck

you're a good person