It's OK - Dawg - you're just having a bad reaction to the soil. You need to flush and get it out of your system before you go into mental defiency.

When you take off all the clothes you were wearing during your ordeal, put them in a trash bag and, after your flush, put them directly in the washing machine. For your flush you need to soak in a hot tub for at least an hour - make sure to clean under your finger nails thoroughly - followed by a nice long shower. That should pretty well detox you, at which point you can start the recovery process. At this point it's a good idea to adjust your pH or top off your reservoir, anything hydro to take your mind off your horrible ordeal with the soil.

Remember, if you start to feel like you might want to play with the soil again, yo9u can always find support in the hydro section and someone there can surely talk you thru it.