I have the weirdest mental condition in the world

[Coelho]

I'd be interested to know about this "fear" you experienced during your fevers though, as it can take many forms. One time (when I was about 14) I had one of those episodes, and was at the tail end of it, I got hit by an overwhelming sense of guilt. I knew I had nothing to feel guilty about, it was a 100% chemical response, like the giult-centers of my brain were just being overstimulated. Absolutely nothing in my thought process indicated something to feel guilty about. So I'm wondering if fever-states or being too hot in general can randomly trigger certain emotions as well, in your case fear. Was the fear in response to anything in particular?

Well... today i smoked a lot and could catch again a glimpse of this feeling... i was laying, with closed eyes, then i felt like the volume of the outside sounds were growing louder and louder... i could not distract my attention from them, they kept louder and louder into my mind... that was what i felt when had a fever, and is what i feel sometimes when very stoned... then i became afraid again... that old forgotten feeling did come... it was the childhood fear of being alone... it was like i have lost myself from "me"... im a very introvert person, and i dont care about being alone (infact, i prefer it), but now i know its because im never alone, but always have the company of my ego... but during this experiences, i feel like i had lost myself from my ego, so i feel that old loneliness again... its weird to think how a 24 yrs old sometimes can feel like a small child...

LOL I'm sure we've lost all the other posters here, who are now who are thinking "god damn hippies":jointsmile:

Just hippies would be an understatement... i think it would be rather "god damn fuckin crazy delusional stoned hippies"...:silly: