MrDevious, i think you have a rare gift. Your description is very similar to some mind states produced by deep meditation (or some hallucinogens). Lots of people spends a lot of time and energy learning to meditate just to achieve a mind state alike yours, and some people spends a lot of money using "hard" hallucinogens to achieve this same state... i think you should use your gift properly.
"Knowledge is a frightening affair", said Don Juan. But you must not let your fear overcome you. The fear can be defeated. Its hard, i know, but its very worth... imagine all the wisdom and knowledge you will have acess... imagine how many worlds of perception you will reach... man... i would smoke 1Kg of weed just to feel what you described... so, gather all your courage, and use your gift properly. Im sure it was not given for you by chance, but by choice. If you was gifted with this, there is a reason for it. So, dont waste it... Use it...and you never will regret.
Good luck! :thumbsup: