Eh.

I don't hate her.

Jail sucks. Noone should be put there. Been there and done it. When the fact that you're in jail finally hits you, you start to fall apart. And just you wait for the moment after your first nap where you wake up and don't even remember you're in prison. Oh jolly roger is all I have to say about that. I cracked up to tears more than once, and, I was a grown-ass man at the time. I can see how someone like her would go batshit loco in an isolation cell and she's lucky she could get out, because, no matter who you are, with garbage kid charges like she had on her, noone deserves to be sent somewhere for the express cause of having a nervous breakdown and trying for hours to get it back together.

I do credit prison with straightening my ass out. It felt like my prayers were actually answered. I felt like a better, more appreciative man aftward, to be honest. That's just me, though. All I got was a little lesson-teacher sentence, not even as long as paris' 40 days, too. But, certain things happened just before i was to report in to serve the time that led to me not knowing if I was getting out on time or would become remanded for violating terms of the plea agreement. Had I actually known for sure I was getting out on time, I would not been nearly as stressed. Its hard to sit in a suicide watch cell because you OD'd two days before you had to turn yourself in and wonder if your po or the judge are fixing to remand you to prison until they are ready to hammer your ass for fucking up during the week's grace period the judge was generous enough to grant.

But, in closing, if you know what its like to crack up in a prison, you can hate her all you want, but still feel okay with what just happened. Noone deserves that mindfuck for such petty charges.

I don't know if I would have went through the stress I did had I the security of knowing I'm getting out when I'm supposed to. But, I'm not about to go back with a definate sentence to find out.