i feel garzi is hitting the nail on the head bout life. I must ask tho have you ever experinced a high were the only thing your mind could focus on is your own death. I myself was once able to smoke weed all day and function. but now i have panic attacks altho i can control them i feel they are hitting at an important door in my life, death. now i only smoke to see how far i will let my mind take me into my own death. its the most real fear i have ever felt, not seen, felt in my life. If anybody can relate whats it like for you????? and it doesnt matter how long i put off smoking the effect is still the same i see death spec my own i can hear it and feel it. I know the fear is deep with in my inner being. I know this fear is inhibiting my spiritual and 3rd eye growth into more aware states of consciousness. ANYBODY HAVE ANY ANSWERS????