You know what's really gay?

This has been happening to me a lot lately. I don't know why, and I don't know how. I've been smoking for a couple years now, and this shit never used to happen. It almost seems to happen every other time I smoke. For awhile I thought it was the strand, or the potency. Then I thought it was because I was smoking so much, so often. I still have no idea why its been happening. It's almost like a panic attack. My heart starts racing and I get this feeling like I'm going to die or some shit.

It's ridiculous. I've been smoking long enough to know all this shit is in my head...but then I start thinking about it more...maybe it's not all in my head. Maybe there really is something wrong with my body. It's fucked up. Bleh...its been decreasing a lot lately, so that's good, but it's not completely gone. If this keeps going on much longer, I just don't know what I'm going to do. I really don't wanna give it up.