Something I can relate with. I have smoked before bed for many years. It feels like when I am under anesteshia. One minute I am awake,then I'm not,then I wake up. The only thing I have noticed tho is that during that time I don't dream. I can't think of a dreamstate that I can relate to for many years now. For me this isn't something that alarms me because my mind is constantly thinking, and it is very restful to not have to be thinking or having my mind going in so many directions like it does. I am wondering if smoking is what has brought me to this point, not dreaming. Before I would be plagued with nightmares,so this not dreaming is blessed release.

One time after smoking I remember trying to fall asleep,and a paralyzing fear came over me.I could remember how to exhale,but couldn't trust myself to inhale.I had to force myself to inhale.I thought if I fell asleep,I could not be trusted to inhale without my reminding myself to.So I warred within myself to stay awake,and slipping into,I don't know what.