It makes me feel bad about everything

[Greenport]

i feel that way sumtimes wen i smoke but then i listen to some good music and think of good shit.

[BlAzInIt4:20]

maybe your going through something right now in your life, and when your stoned your emotions take control. i get like that sometime. My mother passed away almost 4 years ago and sometimes when i get stoned i will do endless thinking of her. Or when iv had a bad day i can get sad ... so maybe your just going through shit right now... i dont know about the whole stop smoking thing.. maybe take it easy.. every other day .. see how things go

[StrictlyWeed]

man! i am with you 100%. i was like that it s all about who youre with man! be with hella fun people and just do shit tahts awesome. dont feel bad just let loose!

[ebleezy]

ive been experiencing these bad highs recently and its starting to ruin the quality and outlook of my life. first, let me address that ive been smoking for a few years and never had a bad time up until 4 months ago. since then ive started to get really down on myself, felt paranoid, felt stressed out about problems that i think i have, felt out of control, afraid of what people thought about me and just overall shitty when i get high.. i was really trippin out because i never felt like this b4 so instead of quitting for a while, which i thought was probably the best thing to do, i continued to smoke to sort of"challenge" myself and to hopefully to get out of this "funk" i was in because i really miss the fun times..i thought of it as "manning up" to it because i felt like i was on some sissy shit.. that was a dumb move on my part.. my highs got worst... smoking with my friends became a nightmare.. i felt like they were all siting there judging and talking shit about me.. I became really irritated and would blow up on them if i felt they were looking at me wrong, almost causing a fight sometimes... they mustve thought i was an idiot or something... i felt really dumb afterward... i tried to smoke with other people and other groups of friends, but still the same feelings of paranoia, awkwardness, and irritableness came about... i felt like my "reputation" was ruined and i felt like i had lost the respect of others.. anyway sorry to go off on my social status or whatever but even when i smoked by myself i still felt shitty. i would think of all the bad times i had, thought about all the negatives in my life, and jus ended up hating myself...it was like my mind was stuck in quicksand of negative thoughts... at first i only felt like this when i was high, but these feelings and thoughts started to become me. i felt depressed and even suicidal for weeks after i stoped smoking. i lost my self-esteem and life was miserable.. i wish to enjoy it one day again but thats seems impossible with the way my mind set is... its obvious that i should jus stop smokin it altogether, which i have been doing and i am starting to feel like myself again, but will i ever enjoy it again????

[BlAzInIt4:20]

yes you will enjoy toking again give it like 6 months to a year... i went through the same thing after i messed up on some unmentionables, messed with my brain chemistry i think.. but after 6 months i was able to get high and enjoy myself again. Iv been smokin for years.. and when i was unable to smoke it sucked but it wasnt worth feeling the way i was ( same as you).. so just keep your head up and know everything will turn out good no matter what comes along..:thumbsup: