The problem with my bipolar and schizo is that after a point I turn into this no feeling monster. Where I don't care anymore and the talking in my head gets so intense and all I can do is revert back to my safety topic: Eric and Dylan. And then I hear them talking and the dreams...and then the depression comes and my whole life turns into what I can do for them. And I know there dead but the sounds are so real. And my whole life isnt mine anymore. I turn into a whore for Eric..