i still dont know what was wrong... i shouldnt be that way... i lost a shitoad of weight, i got stronger, im in all honors classes, and girls are all over me now yet i still felt that bad feeling. it couldve been xanax i took but idk. today i felt kinda off but different and i basically slept through the last couple days for a reason i do not know. and today i knocked out a kid just cuz he called me a pussy. i got that angry over just a name. it just didnt seem right to me. even tho he might have learned his lesson i still feel bad about it.

idk i guess everybody goes through this shit. and to whoever asked im 15. ill just wait it out i guess.