Wtf is wrong?

[lil josh]

are you aged between 14-16?

[Acouwaila]

My bipolar makes me better than all sorts of people b.c of it.

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[Jah420]

You think differently than others. You have that edge over people.

Yeah it's true.. I have it.. runs somewhere in my family.. and in my whole life i've only ever met one other person who has it..

Every time I try to explain it to someone.. including my mom.. they just phase out.. and I just end up shaking my head slowly in some unknown emotion..

It's the hardest thing to explain.. It's like a different dimension of thinking.

example:

Normal person sees a grasshopper, they see a grasshopper.

Someone with this 'multi-dimensional thinking' sees a grasshopper, they are in observance of it, they see that it is as part of a whole and how the whole fuctions as a part of it's existance. How 'it' (the unknown) is in direct accordance with everything that.. ugh.. fuck it..
trying to explain it directly contradicts the whole fuckin concept lmao

[Greenport]

lately i feel depressed. like ive never felt this way. i feel shitty emotionally and nothin even happened to make me feel this way. idk wtf is wrong with me and its honestly scaring me. its an indescribably feeling. idk wat to do. im sure as shit not goin to a doctor and i dont wanna tell my parents... this seriously sucks.

its not like a poor me feeling or anything like that its just i feel bad. i hope some of u understand what im talkin about and can help.

now u know how i feel all the fucking time bro. Take it from me, dont do anything stupid. Like killing yourself for example, DO NOT DO IT. Just get high and think about all the good things and shit. Thats what I do and lately I have been feeling alot better

[dark0ne]

depression sucks, i get depressed alot. Being lonly dosn't help things eather. get some freinds together on a nice day and go to the woods, or a lake. talk shit out with them.... thats what freinds are for. main thing is get out of the house. hanging arround the same place day after day is boring even if you have the dankest weed.

[Jah420]

lately i feel depressed.

i feel shitty emotionally and nothin even happened to make me feel this way. idk wtf is wrong with me and its honestly scaring me. its an indescribably feeling. idk wat to do. im sure as shit not goin to a doctor and i dont wanna tell my parents... this seriously sucks.

its not like a poor me feeling or anything like that its just i feel bad. i hope some of u understand what im talkin about and can help.

I've had the same feeling for almost 2 years now.. and yeah.. same as you.. nothing set it off.. it just sort of developed.

One thing I was absolutely adamant about was that I didn't want to see any doctors.. I just find it laughable that a 52yr old grey balding guy.. in a tweed suit.. thats been stuffed so far up his ass for so long that he looks at you outta his nostrils.. is supposed to be the solution to making me feel better.. hahaha fuck offffff. But yeah.. what happened was.. I went to the see the doctor on something unrelated (back pain).. and my mom came with me cuz she can talk to people like that better.. and about 3mins into the appointment she started blasting out a load of stuff about depression and how i'd changed over the last couple years.. I was so PISSED OFF

He made me do some fuckin questionaire and then started being all fucking patronising EXACTLY like I knew he would be.. I had to really raise my voice at him to stop him making a diagnosis.. he was sayin "well im a doctor.. and its my job to make a diagnosis" ... yeah.. no shit mate.. but I didnt ask you to probe into my life like this so fuck off..

damn.. dude.. learn from that babble... don't let any family go with you to the doctors.. if you want to talk to a doctor its your choice.. and don't worry.. It's not as bad as it seems.. the fear aspect of it could be because it's unknown to you.. but seriously.. it's better than it seems..

chill.. and smoke up good and proper man :rastasmoke:

[lil josh]

are you aged between 14-16?

if so then its just hormones

[Jah420]

There were a few times when I cosidered suicide simply because I was so....bored. Life just didn't feel like it had any meaning.

Last time I felt like that was when I did alot of research into philosophy, got some books goin and started linking things together in my head.. it did actually make me feel THAT shit.. the solution I found was to just go out one weekend and act all day COMPLETELY on impulse.. just doing whatever the fuck you feel like (obviously basically within the law).. and it makes you feel free again.. makes you feel liberated.. like you realise.. sure there may be no point in living.. but there sure aint any point in dying.

Be careful about any kind of drugs (yes, even weed and alcohol) though man, they CAN make it worse if you don't carefully monitor your reactions

Yeah lay off the alcohol man.. depression and alcohol aint friends

[rebgirl420]

Jesus Christ. What is wrong with you guys?

If you've been smoking a lot of draw every day for a while, it causes depression. Everyone gets it when they go overboard, it's a well known fact. I know I did and it's totally fucked.

I would say take a few days off the puff, maybe get a little exercise, have a drink or two. If you feel good when your stoned and depressed again when your not, there's your proof. Just take a time out and you'll feel better in no time.

Wow are YOU wrong haha. Smoking helps my depression and my schizo. It helps my mind stop racing. Its not the pot. Its the person. Oh and telling him to get a "drink" to fix his problems is freaking stupid. If ANYTHING is going to make it worse its alcohol!

[passitplz]

i still dont know what was wrong... i shouldnt be that way... i lost a shitoad of weight, i got stronger, im in all honors classes, and girls are all over me now yet i still felt that bad feeling. it couldve been xanax i took but idk. today i felt kinda off but different and i basically slept through the last couple days for a reason i do not know. and today i knocked out a kid just cuz he called me a pussy. i got that angry over just a name. it just didnt seem right to me. even tho he might have learned his lesson i still feel bad about it.

idk i guess everybody goes through this shit. and to whoever asked im 15. ill just wait it out i guess.