Quote Originally Posted by expirator
Thank you for your bravery, standing up for social anxious people everywhere, including me. I have had problems being addicted to drugs and MAJOR depression. I just was about to kill myself tonight, but marijuana saved my life. I am so socially anxious that I can't even share my thoughts with my own family. I would try to hold a normal conversation with even my brother. Part of this problem lies, in my "people pleaser" mentality. Instead of connecting the idea of what they are saying to experiences I've had in my past and responding in a way that has helped me personally solve the problem, I would just nod, or give a laugh that would try to disguise the fact that I felt SOO anxious and awkward that I couldn't work up the confidence to sustain the pressure put upon me by other individuals eye gazes. Marijuana helped me sustain this pressure from their eyes and their attentions being put on me to respond with something funny, interesting, or "real", for lack of a better word. With this ability to withstand the gaze of their eyes I was able to have meaningful conversations with my friends and my family and this hot Asian girl!!!! Well anyway, I was so depressed, I was just about to take a crapload of xanax, (which I obtained by lying to a psychiatrist to get the drug and to sell it for money) take a couple shots (which with xanax synthesize with because of the synergistic effect on the gaba recepter), and say goodbye.

MY GOD THANK YOU WEED.



I know a strain, the one I am smoking now. I however did not catch the name when I bought it from my friend. So, I will ask him!!! tomorrow I will edit this part of the post with the strain name.



Hey mrdevious, I agree with everything that you posted up until the last number (#4). I wouldn't recommend taking Mcdonalds Dentists to Make Aquaintances. Why? because in my personal experience, it has had some even more depressing side effects than are necessary. For example, marijuana is a good substitute. It cures my social anxiety (see above) and it doesn't make me too depressed after I come down (not that I wouldn't be depressed without the weed). Taking Mcdonalds Dentists to Make Aquaintances just does not seem like the best alternative when marijuana is available. Some people may say that one is more comfortable and socially inclined when taking Mcdonalds Dentists to Make Aquaintances, but from personal experience the learned social communication patterned while taking Mcdonalds Dentists to Make Aquaintances are less memorable than those of marijuana.



Thanks for the tip about the movie / book that will give me the secret to the laws of attraction. I read the wikipedia to learn a little bit about the laws of attraction and I am going to buy the dvd from amazon. From what I have read however, I have found out that the laws of attraction are believing so hard that you can get something, focusing in on that thing, imagining that you have the thing (whatever it may be), and that thing will come to you with time. This is all true in my experience as well. When I want something bad enough (which weed helps me with) then things around me seem to work for me. I no longer have to handle ALL the pressure of thinking and worrying about how to obtain the object that I want so bad. All my life I have been lying, I have been a pathological lie-r (how the FUCK do you spell that word) because I was just trying to please the people around me to fool them into thinking that I was the person that following their sentences and keeping up with the "thought train" (or the momentum of logic traveling between the participants of the social interaction). I was just trying to slough off the fact that I had no idea, NO IDEA, how to share myself with other people. I am going to order the DVD and watch it, possibly many many times, and hopefully it will expand on the information I read in the wikipedia page. Quick question to anyone who is familiar with the laws of attraction... how do multi-taskers work if one must be concentrated on what one wants to recieve. In other words how do multitaskers (if the laws of attraction are valid) get two things at once, when they can only want one reallly bad?

LASTLY (sorry for the long post), I would like to give a big thanks to all of you guys for saving my life. You were here at just the right time, along with weed. But yea, I hope to hear back from you all!











@expirator: How you described your social phobia and how weed helped/cured it sounded EXACTLY what i've been dealing with and you are the first person who has described your situation in a way that i can totally relate to. It made me really excited reading your post that maybe marijuana may be helpful for me. I've smoked random times in the past and have had mixed reactions, but sometimes ill notice that my social phobia is greatly helped when i smoke & i'm thinking the paranoia/anxiety from smoking could have been caused by bad strains. So, i've been on the psychiatric bandwagon and I'm sick of these meds not helping me and my life passing me by. I'm 22 and have suffered from severe social phobia since i was 14. It has stripped all that is good in my life away from me. I am interested in hearing more about your situation and how you are doing 2 years later (since your post on Cannabis.com) and if you are still using weed to cope with this dreadful dreadful disease called social phobia. I am writing to you because i am interested in possibly using weed to help with my social phobia, but I am kinda skeptical about the possible long term side effects and even the short term side effects. I also only want to smoke strains that are good for helping with social phobia. I live in new jersey, so i'm not sure how easy it is for me to get medicinal weed or how to find the strands that are perfect for social phobia. Best, Ariell