Thanks for the reply uncleweed,

I agree with you. It is very soothing to know that the other people out there are feeling some of the same feelings that I am (although its hard to realize this sometimes even when I repeat that in my head) I think I will try the slow breathing technique mentioned by mrdevious

2. Keep your breathing in mind, and keep the breaths slow and deep.
combined with the constant injection of my vulnerable little self into awkward settings.

I have experienced similar feelings that I have nothing to say in a conversation. It was hard to explain to people that I had nothing to say because I had nothing to say about me saying nothing but weed helped me with this one.

I believe that you do have something to say in conversations uncleweed. Everyone has associations with what other people say. Of course you may not always have an association with everything everyone says, but you can associate to most things I find, however obscure the association. This association is what keeps conversations going for me. What worked for me here is again weed. Specifically the element of the THC to slow down my thoughts just enough to where I could vocalize what I needed to say to bounce the conversation ball back in their court. (BTW don't be scared of this conversation ball) for so long I was afraid when the ball would land in my court. I am still EXTREMELY fearful of this ball when I am sober. WEEED. 'nough said.

Additionally, uncleweed, I believe this connects with your inability to say appropriate things at the right time. I have had this problem myself. From my experience, I have found that I say inappropriate things when my mind wonders. My mind will first stay on the conversation topic (although my attention, when I'm sober is not devoted fully to the conversation), then it will tend to wonder off. When my mind wonders off, it tends to go to "inappropriate" topics such as sex. Because I fear speaking up at the "appropriate" time, I will speak at a more inappropriate time. This more inappropriate time will be when my mind was on an inapropriate subject. Again I will recommend just slowing your mind down. If you want an appropriate topic, start with hello. Then follow the flow of the conversation, and direct your attention carefully to the "thought-train" (or the momentum of logic traveling between the participants of the social interaction. sometimes listening is more important than talking for me.

Let me know what y'all think