Okay, I'm gonna be honest with you.

What are you thinking getting all fucked up and stealing your parents car?

I think you really need to think about the path you are choosing for yourself. Fuck this dude, he will only fuck you over. There are a million women out there who will tell you that we have been in similar situations, and been extremely fucked over.

Take it from me. I was with a 19 year old when I was 15 and we were together for 2 and a half years. He was a fucking loser and I knew it right from the start, yet I felt that I just really wanted to be loved. I know exactly how it feels, and it sucks, a lot. Having a relationship you have to hide from everyone feels REALLY shitty, it makes YOU feel shitty. Not only that, what the hell is a 20 year old doing with a 15 year old anyway? You want to know what my boyfriend did? He cheated on me, A LOT, and I went into denial and just made myself believe it was hunky dory.

Don't go down that path. Go hang out with really good friends and good people and find love that way. Don't go for someone who will drain you of your money and your emotions and whatever else they can.

You ultimatly have the power, and I know it's fucking hard. But you know whats right. Don't go for a felon that has been arrested over 18 times, what the hell dude???? Do you think thats going to get better? He sounds like a sociopath to me, and thats exactly what my ex was, a sociopath/bi polar crazy fuck up, who did a lot of drugs.

I'm not trying to be harsh, I just don't want another girl to end up how I did. It sucked! I ruined relationships with friends and family to be with someone who really didn't give a shit about me, he just wanted me for his emotional crutch. He manipulated me, he used me.

...and you know what? Hes 25 now with an 18 year old girl..and let me tell you..I don't think hes doing much better.

Good luck, I really hope you can get past this. I know it's hard, but be strong , and you will be okay. Just live life moment by moment and appreciate the now and realize you will be alive at the end of the day no matter what.

Sorry if I rambled, I'm hella baked. :hippy: