Quote Originally Posted by delusionsofNORMALity
i considered myself agnostic for a major portion of my life. early on i dropped the entire judeo-christian ideology, but i wasn't quite ready to give up the concept of some sort of spiritual force which exerted some sort of control over the universe. i finally came to the point where i knew i had to make a choice, to come to some sort of conclusion as to the nature of reality. i believe it was the right choice.

it seems to me that at some point in life you have to make the decision, to take a leap of faith in one direction or another. i suppose you could spend your entire life waffling on the subject, but there is a certain satisfaction in choosing a course and resigning yourself to its consequences.
See I am completely opposite. I spent most of my childhood and young teen life believing in God simple because it was always a part of everything. Everyone always talked about him, everyone went to church. I believed because it was the normal. In my late teens is when I started having my doubts I started to see big gaping flaws in christianity and then later in religion in general. I then began to ask myself. Do I even believe anymore, am I an atheist or something? Is this a bad thing? Then finally it hit me. I feel like I have to choose to believe or not to believe because we are programmed to be that way. Our societies around the world are centered around or stemmed from various religions. My satisfaction and "awakening" hit me when I realized there is absolutely no logic and quite a bit of flaws in going to one side of the fence or the other, to do that means to put up blinders. People that believe or don't believe become highly defensive and completely resistant to any evidence. My current best friend who is religious refuses to believe in Evolution because it's not in the bible, regardless of the fact that Evolution is all but proven with unmeasurable amounts of evidence behind it..fossil record, DNA, insect and bacteria models.

I feel "free" and enlightened now that I know where/how I stand on the issue. Maybe it's arrogance maybe it's not but I also feel smug in the fact that I was one of the lucky few to "be free of the Matrix" so to speak.