Quote Originally Posted by Runaway Jim
The question comes down to: Is it worse to have something and lose it forever or never have the chance to have it?
I too, would say to have and to lose.

My dad died when i was 17, seven months before that my mum passed away also. During the first 16 years up untill my mums death i never really knew my dad. I mean we lived together, we were a family, but i was closer to my mu. My dad never really spoke in the house. He worked all day 5-6 days a week to provide for us, he loved us, he just couldn't show it.

After my mum died my dad fell apart. He was signed of work sick from the day after my mum dided to the day he died. He had cancer and the symptoms started two weeks after my mums death. The docs didn't seem to care. There opinion seemed to be one of "yeah, he's lost his wife and needs some attention". We had a doc round nearly everyday for months because my dad couldn't wlak or stand. By the time a doctor actually took notice it was too late. If he'd of survived he would never of walked again. There was a tumor on his spine.

Once he was in hospital and the pain was under control we started talking and growing close and i realised that he wasn't the miserable so and so i always thought. He was funny when he wanted to be and we started to become friends.

Then just as i was starting to feel close to my dad and was awaiting the day he'd be coming home from hospital. He died.

I've done alot of wrong things in life, none of which i regret. The only thing i regret is something i didn't do. And that's get to know my dad while i had the chance.