I have a dad although he's mentally unstable, he's spent years in a mental home but for some reason was let out(he only told me recently down the phone). I guess he did his best with me but my dad and mum were always arguing. Not just small things, my dad is also a smoker so he would go on a psycho rampage sometimes..The first memories I have of him being psycho were when he tore down the "no smoking" sign a drew because it was no smoking day when I was 7 or 8. Anyways when I was 10 or 11 things just got steadily worse, my mum was already an emotional wreck because he constantly made her feel like shit. My mum was sitting watching tv or something and he came in, held her up against the wall and punched her a lot. We stayed with my granny for a few days after this while my dad stayed in the house, until the police forced him out of it or something. Then the divorce began, aparently it's the worst for the kids but it tormented my mum so much more than me. I remember seeing my dad at court, the first time I'd seen him after he'd hit my mum...it was like looking at a different person. I always knew he was a psycho but I never thought he would go that far, that low. Anytime they used to argue I would talk to myself, this helped me through a lot and still helps me with shit. When im depressed, i'll talk or joke with myself, yes it sounds like im a psycho too who has split personalities but I dont. I never had people I could talk to...so I talked to nobody, said my words and feeling into nothingness. It helps me through loads of stuff of course I dont walk down the street talking and laughing to myself. Although sometimes I'll randomly think of a hilarious joke and burst out laughing...cant help it. So yeah...my dads screwed up and over the passed few years I barely have talked to him. I dont care about him...I care about the people he has screwed up though. My mum mainly although there are massive traces of him in my sister. I mean I think she might be mentally damaged aswell...she can go pretty psycho....Then theres my other sister, she goes psycho but its not un-natural..shes a doctor to and has recently been to amsterdam :hippy: . Oh yeah....theres me...a random, chilled out, stoner...ive been called a moonchild as far back as I can remember.....

Obviously I dont know what it's like to have no father completely...but thats my shit...peace.