First I want to say sorry for not mentioning the girls in the title of this thread. I guess I wasn't thinking of how not having a father affects girls, although I think it affects them in different yet no less profound ways. I totally welcome all comments and experiences by everyone.

I spent many years of my life trying to be special in some way. I would fantasize about being a genius in one form or another, and I was always searching for that gift I had that would seperate me from the pack, making others notice me. I am pretty sure this was my subconscience screeming "Daddy look at me!". To some extent I still struggle with this desire to prove myself.
I must also say that not having a father made me realize how important both parents are, and because I understood this I am the best father I can be. So some good will come out of the situation.
Thank you all for sharing.:jointsmile: