Thanks everyone...
mostly you Birdgirl...I am sure I speak for everyone when I say you are an amazing person...I dont feel any better right now, but I dont feel any worse..I do have tears streaming. I know what I am doing is right..it is just not easy..I only have a few more days till I move out..the couch is killing me anyways. LOL
I think she is a very understanding person, but I get the feeling that she feels that I dont want her..it is not that at all..Another point that I didnt mention is that I am moving a 100 miles away from where I am now...so that is making it hard..
I guess I really just stick to my convictions and promises I made to myself. Like you said, it will work out the way it works out. Funny, those are the same words I would tell someone else in my situation.