My emotions have been running the gamut the last couple of weeks..actually months..but I guess they are starting to finally wear on me.
With my mom dying, my failed marriage, poor career choices and a bunch of other things...
About a month ago I met a girl that is super cool, very sexy, easy to talk to...at this point I really care for her,,,but my divorce is not complete...I am moving out in a couple of days...So, I feel that I cannot give myself to her. At this point I just feel like running away from her...actually I just want to run away from myself..I actually cried last night.first time in years...cause I am confused and depressed and I am sure I am not what any woman needs in their life right now.
I was so happy the other day...I think I actually felt what love is again..it has been so long...but I know it is too soon...and I dont want to hurt anyone or hurt myself emotionally, so I am scared to open up..to tell someone who I am...beyond the superficial bullshit..I have not had sex with her because I want to wait because I know it is right...but I know she wants to..I just figure if she cant get it from me right now, she will just go elsewhere...So, honestly I dont know what to do....Mentally, my internal dialogue is running a 100 miles a minute and I feel that I just cant do the right thing no matter what.
geonagual Reviewed by geonagual on . getting past my disguise My emotions have been running the gamut the last couple of weeks..actually months..but I guess they are starting to finally wear on me. With my mom dying, my failed marriage, poor career choices and a bunch of other things... About a month ago I met a girl that is super cool, very sexy, easy to talk to...at this point I really care for her,,,but my divorce is not complete...I am moving out in a couple of days...So, I feel that I cannot give myself to her. At this point I just feel like Rating: 5