PureEvil, I recommend the nearest mental institution to you.

You are not even able to distinguish "imagine you took LSD and you saw something" from "you took LSD".

You "live in fear or in love" makes no sense, as you make the utterly absurd assertion that believing in god == love and not believing == fear. Any mentally sane person wouldn't expect to say "this means this and that means that and you're this because of that" without making a clear case of why it is so.

And I don't for one moment doubt you felt better after the so-said experiences, same as an heroin addict feels better after the dose. Does that make heroin good, loveable, or correct? No.

Again, find a mental institution. There is still time for you.

Should you not want to get yourself treated, then at least stop chatting with us idiots,retarded,not enlightened, dumb, language-loving, rational people, because your mental diarrhea only makes you look a little more insane.