Sounds like she's not exactly ideal girlfriend material, Jimbo. If she's got such a low opinion of herself that she's hooking up with/blowing guys randomly, that's not exactly a good sign. You may not yet be able to see this, but I speak the truth.

You, too, have some confidence issues going on or you A) wouldn't describe yourself as a "lanky, skinny piece of S" and B) wouldn't be so drawn to a girl like this one. Try and give yourself a break, OK? And don't over-obsess about that girl, either, because that's just getting you more worked up and more depressed right now.

You can work on your depression with the best natural antidepressant there is, which is exercise. That'll also help your bod and your confidence. Quit trying every drug in the book. That's playing with fire and you know it. Keep watching the patterns of this girl. She may be pretty and you have idealized her and worked yourself up into thinking she's the one, but if she changes her mind, decides you're The One and hooks up with you, trust me. There's going to be a Next One right after you. And a Next One right after him . . . .

You're 16, for goodness sakes, and still growing and still learning. You're not supposed to have a lot of experience right now. Give yourself a break. Read this thread for some more information (ignore one of the responders and listen to the women and the guys like THCBongman and P4B) on a similar topic:

http://boards.cannabis.com/sexuality...ml#post1414970
birdgirl73 Reviewed by birdgirl73 on . looking for advice, please... well, ill try to keep it short. but i need ideas on what the fuck to do cause im rly depressed :'( pleast take the time to read its extremely appreaciated. ok im 16, 10th grade, and i must admit i dont find myself attractive. im 5'8 or so and i weigh 115. basicly im a lanky, skinny peice of shit lol. ive had a few relationships, my lack of experience does worry me sometimes though. this october i met this girl, this might sound excessive but this is the honist truth, i fell so deeply Rating: 5