well, ill try to keep it short. but i need ideas on what the fuck to do cause im rly depressed :'( pleast take the time to read its extremely appreaciated.

ok im 16, 10th grade, and i must admit i dont find myself attractive. im 5'8 or so and i weigh 115. basicly im a lanky, skinny peice of shit lol. ive had a few relationships, my lack of experience does worry me sometimes though.

this october i met this girl, this might sound excessive but this is the honist truth, i fell so deeply in love with her just from sight, shes absolutely beautiful, shes my wife, if i dont get married to her im not getting married. we hung out for a few months and soon became best friends. we are so close now its unbeleiviable. ive been hanging around with her for a long time and have been there for all of her boyfriends and i helped her out if she needed it (keeping in mind that this is emotional suicide because of how i feel about her) So, 2 months ago, were both sleeping over at our other friends house and i was in for the suprise of my life, at 4 in the morning after a long night of cuddling () she says...."tyler i have to tell you something, i like you" i swear to fucking god i could have just died when she said that. so i kissed her and we went to sleep. we started hooking up on a semi regular basis and this was just more than i could ever dream of, and we still are. were not dating though, so theres no commitment, and werre trying to avoid that just for the sake of our friendship, which was a mutual agreement.

so whats the problem? ive come to the harsh realization that the chances of me being with my dream girlfriend forever are, miniscule. ive told her i loved her on several special occasions and she said it back. that would mean something if she didnt say "i love you" to every fucking prick she whored herself out to, then comes bitching to me when they didnt actually like her they just wanted to get in her pants. i CANT trust her, bottom line. i cant emphasize enough what she means to me, i would do absolutely anything in the world for her, i mean ANYTHING. im at the point where ive questioned myself for even being friends with her. the more im around her, the more i love her, when im not with her shes all i can think about.

i dont know what the fuck im doing anymore, this is literally tearing me apart. ive done every drug in the book to try to get away from it all and nothing. i just dont know...

please help me if you can, ANY advice or anything is extremely appreaciated. thanks guys...
Jimbob1310 Reviewed by Jimbob1310 on . looking for advice, please... well, ill try to keep it short. but i need ideas on what the fuck to do cause im rly depressed :'( pleast take the time to read its extremely appreaciated. ok im 16, 10th grade, and i must admit i dont find myself attractive. im 5'8 or so and i weigh 115. basicly im a lanky, skinny peice of shit lol. ive had a few relationships, my lack of experience does worry me sometimes though. this october i met this girl, this might sound excessive but this is the honist truth, i fell so deeply Rating: 5