Very interesting turn of events, all i can say is that everything happens for a reason. Its probably better that you come to this realization at a young age, it takes most people many years to come to such a conclusion. I, myself, questioned my religion late last year and came to the conclusion that I was an atheist. Ever since then, i can appreciate and enjoy the beauty in life itself. I dont need a god, or to know whats right and wrong, I KNOW whats right and wrong, i dont need a book to tell me so. I was brought up hindu, and unlike most other religions, there are many hindu's that are atheist, but i dont even identify with them. I know there is no god, and I know that our little planet earth is here for all of humanity to enjoy. Good luck to you and your future endevours.