Well... Take this however you wish, make your judgements, I don't care anymore.

I killed all but one plant. 14. I don't know. I just felt... the juice wasn't worth the squeeze. I can complain and give all the reasons, but it isn't going to change the fact that I gave up. I'm only 16 and this isn't what I want to be doing with my life anyway. I spent practically an entire year on these boards studying growing, and when I finally have all the knoledge I need, I end it. In a way, it was a positive thing, in the sense that it helped me "let go". I guess this is a major spiritual thing in my life right now, and this descision was only one of many.

I have one baby left. If she lives, she lives, if she grows balls, she grows balls. Sexual orientation means less and less to me anyhow.

I also... Shaved my head. And my eyebrows. I look very much like the scary man in Lost Highway. But it's not about comparisons anymore. I want total spiritual peace, and I'm willing to give up all self-ego-image.

Ganja helped me see the light, and I will never "quit" weed,
but I don't think i'm going to make it such a priority anymore.
I don't identify with any "stoner" culture, I don't have any real friends,
and... I find less and less about "normal" life appealing.

I want happyness.

I'm sick of the artificiality of this bullshit.

Maybe I'll travel to some kind of commune...
Inferius Reviewed by Inferius on . I think you're going to like this... can't sleep... Well, it's me, a year later and many many hours spent browsing the growers posts... Before I start this, I want to say that none of this would have been possible without you guys, your passion, and Our passion for this incredible plant. May we strive to continue it's legacy and undermine it's enemies. Strains: White Rhino, NLXShiva, and maybe a sativa freebie if they germ. I'm growing these outdoors, gorilla style. However, after reading a few threads here and Rating: 5