That heart dropping is the sound of honesty knocking. Very scary and very liberating at the same time isn't it?

I don't doubt that you loved her once....perhaps still do. But relationships change as do people. You are not the same person. Neither is she. Unless work is put into it relationships do not grow. Instead they pop out in all directions due to the silence and denial.

Very first......what is it that YOU want....really. Not how happy you would be if everyone else is happy. There is a big difference.

You have TWO relationships to think about here .....not too mention all underground dwellers that will pop up later in the form of in-laws.