Ouch...

Honestly...completly honest is I was lonely, and I did love her, so I thought "why not"?

I am ready for a family, absolutly-but, and I have thought about this very much, I am not sure about the child because she is not mine. I mean, I know I want a family, this is HER family, you get what I mean?

And yes, I agree it is not fair to the child. The situation this child is in now is heart breaking, though. She is living in squaller with a bad environment, and you are most deff. right about crackhead in-laws...they are already a BIG pain in the ass with the fighting and drunken idiotness, and what not. Just because they are half way across the country does not mean they dont agrivate the hell out of me.

This is horrible. I know deep down I love her, I DONT know if love is enough.