Long post ahead: Please don't read if you feel the need to post something retarted. Serious advice needed

I just can't do this anymore. I have no one to talk to, about anything but, my boyfriend in specific. I'm going to rant and please, if you have advice..give it to me. I really need it right now. Please keep in mind that everything I say is the damn truth and if you don't believe it, don't respond.

My boyfriend and I have had the perfect relationship for the most part, today is our five month aniversary. In the begining it was rocky, because it started off with us fucking, then dating, and anyone who knows how that is gets what I mean. We fought a lot, about little things. Then, somehow..it got better. For months, it was great. Literally, great. Every weekend we'd see eachother and we'd talk all week, our sex life was amazing, there were no complaints.

Then something happened. I don't know what, he became overprotective but I could deal with that. I've had that happen to me before, in almost all of my relationships. But he's started to tell me what to wear (or rather..not wear.. i.e anything with any sort of cleavage showing), he told me how to do my makeup, things like that. He never did it meanly though, just comments like "Please don't wear that to school" or "You look better without eyeliner" ...nothing harsh or abusive.

This past weekend was hell. First, he came to my house fucked up off of DXM after I've repeatively told him "Do not come to my house on that shit". It was like how it was in the begining but worse. I spent the majority of my weekend bawling my eyes out in my bathroom, begging him to "just fucking hold me".

He got mad at me for wanting to do a specific drug other than weed, I said I wouldn't but he said he didn't trust me. I never gave him a reason not to trust me in our entire relationship.

We worked that out slowly, and then he calls me the next morning and tells me that he has to tell me something important, that he got caught cooking crack in his mom's kitchen the past week. I stayed calm, I didn't yell, but I asked him why. He said because he wanted to buy me a diamond ring. I'm far from a material girl, I don't mind shopping at kohl's or marshell's or wal*mart. And I told him that, very clearly, he said he wouldn't do it again. We've discussed him doing this before, he has a friend that was going to help him do it, but I begged him not to for his safety and he said he'd never do it. Crack heads are not nice people. Duh.

We fought more about this specific drugs. I had people over, and they were going to get some and to comply to him, I wasn't going to do it, I was just going to get it for them. He sat there angerly all night, talking to me in short sentences and ignoring me for the most part. Keep in mind, my boyfriend has done DXM, e, wet and all sorts of pills and drinks like a fish. I pretty much only smoke weed. That's it.

In the midst of one of our fights, he literally picked me up and moved me away from the door to leave. I threw a fit and he ended up leaving in the end. My best friend chased after him and basically said "You know that girl up there, crying her eyes out over you? Well she loves you more than anything." and that's all it took for him to come back.

Everything was good again, but then no more then a few hours later he was mad at me AGAIN. Why? Because two kids were going to have to sleep on the streets and I wouldn't let them. I had them stay over my house. He was pissed because I wouldn't let him sleep over.

Sunday came around and things were okay again,

then today..I had my guy friend from school over, for only a little bit, 'cause he's a nice kid and all and who cares right? He got mad at me. Telling me he "doesn't want me to hang out with guys alone". He also banned me from talking to another guy friend of mine, but honestly..I still do.

Let me point this out. He was being treated for anger, he was taking medicine (serequel I think.) but has stopped taking it a month or two ago. He refuses to go back on it or even to see a therapist or a psych.

I've gone through hell with this boy and back, there have been perfect nights and nights I wish we weren't together. But the problem is, I love him. I love him too much to give up on him but there has to be something that I can do that I'm not thinking of.

If you're going to say "break up with him", please don't bother. I can't do that.

I've been in a lot of different relationships and I've delt with them all pretty well, but this time..I really don't know what to do. I can hardly eat, I sleep as much as I can, because then...I don't have to deal with it.

Can anyone, at all, relate or help me, or something?
BabyFacedAbortion Reviewed by BabyFacedAbortion on . Extremely long post, serious advice needed. Long post ahead: Please don't read if you feel the need to post something retarted. Serious advice needed I just can't do this anymore. I have no one to talk to, about anything but, my boyfriend in specific. I'm going to rant and please, if you have advice..give it to me. I really need it right now. Please keep in mind that everything I say is the damn truth and if you don't believe it, don't respond. My boyfriend and I have had the perfect relationship for the most part, today is our Rating: 5