hey.......

I can't believe what I'm going to say.... I seriously can't...

My mum woke me up today...and told me how dissapointed she was.... then she told me she found my "stuff"... which consisted of a bullet pipe...some papers...and some seeds. no pot, but still.

I was speechless for some seconds...then I started to talk... then suddenly she lost her compusture and started crying .. "what are you doing with your life? I do everything so you can have a future" etc etc... I felt like some big shit...I still do...I feel like shit.

I told her it was "a kind of legal thing...made of strawberry" but I bet she didn't buy it.... and told her I just wanted to "experiment" and that have only done it a couple of times....

She took that stuff...I don't know what she is going to do with them....I hope she throws it away.... I fucking hate myself right now.