Been depressed lately..

[TheFatKid]

There have been lots of things going on. Mainly been having to deal with society, having weird thoughts about Columbine and Virginia Tech, but mainly life in general. There is no "=( i hate myself, my girlfriend of 2 weeks dumped me im gonna kill myself". I always have thoughts about what could be different in this world, or if people weren't such self-righteous(don't know if i used that correctly ) dickbags there would be less violence in the world, mass murders, murders, and suicides would barely happen. But whats really been bothering me is when I find myself pondering existence. It feels as if there is no point to living, since nothing is ever remembered in the end. Even the sadness it would make others feel wouldn't be felt when they are dead. I would try picking up religion, but believing in any kind of god really doesn't make sense to me. Today I've seriously considered suicide, but I know I definitely won't do it. What should I do?

TheFatKid Reviewed by TheFatKid on 04-22-2007. Been depressed lately.. There have been lots of things going on. Mainly been having to deal with society, having weird thoughts about Columbine and Virginia Tech, but mainly life in general. There is no "=( i hate myself, my girlfriend of 2 weeks dumped me im gonna kill myself". I always have thoughts about what could be different in this world, or if people weren't such self-righteous(don't know if i used that correctly ) dickbags there would be less violence in the world, mass murders, murders, and suicides would Rating: 5

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i feel the same im really lost and it sucks

[TheFatKid]

I hate it dude, and no matter how much I think, I can't find another reason. The sad truth is that life really doesn't have a meaning.

[sttomassmoker]

yeah sure life has no real meaning but, come on man, it is amazing. I have been down the depression road real bad and still battle with it everyday (whee cymbalta sure helps .

Things that really help depression are exercise, having a job you don't hate, getting out and going out of your way (not too far out of your way).

You gotta be aware of the astronomical importance of the fact that you are alive. It's not your duty to worry about all the stress in the world. You have to keep your head up and go get what you want. No matter how fucked up the world is, you are alive and you don't have much time here anyways.

You also have to be humble, keep yourself in check and always be on yourself to think straightforward and logically. We are animals living within a cage called human society, and all animals want to be free. You can't dwell on what it would be like if you were dead, you can't let the thought of suicide become your safety blanket for when you feel like shit.

Then is the same as now so you will always have good times and you will always have bad times. There is no point in dwelling on the bad just go with the flow and before you know it everything will be OK.

Appreciate the fact that you can see, smell, touch, taste and hear. Don't worry about the bullshit in the world, don't worry about nothin cause nothin is gonna be alright.

Beside's every viable young man and woman will be drafted to go fight the death wars in the middle east in a matter of years anyways.

[passitplz]

i know exactly how u feel... but really there is nothing u can do about it so u just gotta say fuck it and keep living. maybe one day we'll all figure it out

[Oneironaut]

Hey, welcome to the club. I've felt the same way before, about life being pointless and shit. And I've definitely had suicidal thoughts before too, although I could never actually kill myself.

When it comes down to it, your life is what you make of it. The fact that in a few million years there will be no sign you ever existed doesn't matter; a few million years ago there were no signs of any humans anywhere, and that clearly doesn't bother you. We, like everything else in the universe, are temporary.

Which, when you think about it, makes life a very precious thing. You only have this moment, right now, to experience anything. So what if your life doesn't have a point that was defined for you before you were born? Your life is as pointless as you perceive it to be. Purpose is a human concept; it is not something objective that is intrinsic to things. There is no purpose to an atom, or a rock, or a star, or a human being, besides the purposes that we humans ascribe to them in our own brains. I'm glad there is no predefined purpose to my life; that just means I have the freedom to live according to my own purposes.

Don't turn to religion for an answer; religions will only give you answers that were imagined up by superstitious dead people who said they had all the answers with enough certainty that other people believed them.

If there's anything this Virginia Tech incident has to teach us about the world, it's that the universe is completely indifferent to our wants and desires. There is no God up there making sure everything goes just right for you according to his divine plan. There is no karma making sure you get rewarded for all your good deeds. Religion is largely a way of pretending that the universe does care about us. In reality, though, we have to accept that the universe is indifferent to our emotions, and the only way to achieve more good emotions than bad is to work together to overcome the randomness of nature and tip the scales in our favor. Things will never be perfect, but with our capacity to think and to love our fellow human beings, it is possible to make the world a better place and increase our collective happiness.

And that is the meaning of my life. I want to use my capacity to think and to love so I can make the world a happier place for me and for other people.

[TheFatKid]

I agree with the point that we gotta try to make the best of life and shit, but the point I'm trying to get across is whats the point in all of it if it won't matter at the end? If I didn't have that thought, I'd probably be perfectly happy. I've asked other people if they feel the same way and if they often think about life and death, but they say no. Is it my intelligence and connections with real life events that are causing me this? I think it is. I guess ignorance is bliss.

[Oneironaut]

Who cares if it won't matter in "the end"? What's so special about the end? Live life now.

[TheFatKid]

Thats what I'm doing. Its hard to explain I guess. What I'm trying to get across is that life is basically one drunken night. You go to the party(become born), drink till your fucked off your ass(life), and wake up the next morning with no memory of what happened(death;"the afterlife"). Is there a point to living life if we will have no remembrance of it when we die?

[thcbongman]

Life is a mixture of great joy, suffering and most of all, a sustained period of limbo. It's happiness that matters anyway?

Even if we don't hear about it, death occurs around us, whether it's natural or caused by the human hand. You have to accept it as part of life, and pursue happiness. Because these events should make you appreciate that you are alive and kicking.