Dude, I'm really sorry t'hear that. No one deserves death at 18. Like others have said, just remember the good times you've had with 'em. Whenever I have to deal with death, I enjoy sitting in a dark room with or without weed and just sit and reflect, and, if you feel like it, crying. Just sit and think, man.

On another note, if you don't mind me asking, where at in Iowa? I live near Osceola and Creston, down near the south west corner.