Quote Originally Posted by Billionfold
Umm... you feel it appropriate to receive rep for feeling sorry for yourself?
Terrible, isn't it? Apparently I am known to you all for more than my sullen disposition, but for other qualities that I am not even aware of.

I'm glad that none of you showed me pity, that is not what I am seeking. It's expression. At times, my mind will revert into this mode and I can record my thoughts and feelings with impeccable accuracy, although I'm never quite sure what it all means. This writing comes from a spirit inside me and this is it's means to escape, I think. I posted this for you all. To read, to enjoy and to purge your own minds. I document my fears so that later I can look them in the eye and see it for what it is.

On the other hand, professional counseling has been arranged and I am to speak with someone soon about these patterns of behavior and thought.
Ganj Reviewed by Ganj on . More relentless contemplation, by yours truly. I should get mad rep. points for this. :p Ladies and gentlemen, the following segment of this post is the epitome of doubt. Your advice is always welcome, however it is not vital. Doubt consumes knowledge, and immerses your "faith" into a realm hardly visited by the strong-willed, until it transforms you into a machine. Eventually, doubt will consume a promising spirit, until all that remains is a breathing carcass. I feel sorry for myself at times, I realize the harm I bring in the Rating: 5