Quote Originally Posted by Billionfold
Umm... you feel it appropriate to receive rep for feeling sorry for yourself?
Terrible, isn't it? Apparently I am known to you all for more than my sullen disposition, but for other qualities that I am not even aware of.

I'm glad that none of you showed me pity, that is not what I am seeking. It's expression. At times, my mind will revert into this mode and I can record my thoughts and feelings with impeccable accuracy, although I'm never quite sure what it all means. This writing comes from a spirit inside me and this is it's means to escape, I think. I posted this for you all. To read, to enjoy and to purge your own minds. I document my fears so that later I can look them in the eye and see it for what it is.

On the other hand, professional counseling has been arranged and I am to speak with someone soon about these patterns of behavior and thought.