i have one too. he lives out of town tho. we only see each other 2 or 3 times a year and i can't stand it. i have the worst crush on him but i don't think he knows how i feel. this is awful. it couldn't come at any worse time in my life. just the worst timing in the world. i am seeing other people, but mainly to try to get him out of my head. is that bad?