As funny as that was...i'm not laughing....I had a lucid dream last night and basically was trapped the whole time....I couldn't control it at all....I was aware I was dreaming and as soon as I was aware I lost control cordination and fell to the ground....I then proceeded to walk down a hallway until I woke up....the whole time I walked down the hallway I had some type of dark shadow around me(keep in mind this was a dream)....Besides I HAD arachnaphobia until 3 days ago when somehow I didn't get a panic attack when one was in the garden....but black widow I probably still can't touch...too many memories of them doing bad....And if all you want to do is imply that I kill myself....why don't you go back in your fathers testicles where you belong?