one thing you should realize is the immense changes people go through when they are younger. i remember from the time i was 18 to 21, i had become a totally different person with completely different views on things. at 18 i was a 'peace loving hippy' at 21 i had cut my hair and joined the military. people change a lot at that age, just remember that. not saying you're doomed or anything, just that a lot is going to happen in the next few years of your life that will change your outlook on things.