When your on the inside, all you have is time.
You are dead to the outside world time ticks by, it is your enemy.
The walls that contain you become your world, you are a fish in a huge pond then one day your cast into a little bowl. Thats not living, thats just existing, and sometimes its survival. Just because your alive on the inside doesnt mean your living, your soul slowly dies and you wither away slowly. like a caged dog if your in long enough.
To get me by my 8 years I held conversations in my head anything really to help pass the time.
That night seem silly but loneiness is the biggest silent killer(even over your cell mate).
It is far more cruel to keep them alive and treat them like animals then to give them a quick death.


I learned from experiance.