I no what u mean Im the same way. Ive known him literaly my hole life(hes 6 years older and weve hung out since we were kid cause our moms were close. I used to look up to him when I was younger, the more I think about it the more fucked up it makes me feel. We have been through alot of shit together Ive had sum of the best and worst times of my life with him. I used to consider him one of my BEST freinds and that takes alot for me. So disapointed in him, I guess he finaly hit rock bottom!