How do you people all write these novels... hahaha

I can not even come close to telling you what you should do. But I once went through a full year of hell, as treatment for something. My thinking of life is now. Screw it, I am enjoying my time while I have it. Plus, If I die today, it will just save me money.

Most all people have something like that in their brain somewhere. But a second opinion is always nice.

Just dont smoke the bud if you are worried about this. What a waste to be sucking on some good weed, while worrying if it will kill you.

Peace, and best wishes with your trouble, if it is trouble.