your young you want sex it is natural. we do. and your only human.
i guess what i boils down to them is it not about talking dirty or a cop outfit.
you need to sit down and talk with him this weekend have someone watch your girl for an hour or 2 so you can talk and just talk. you need to tell him all of this. yeah its not gonna be a great time but get this all out the way let him know that you sabotage's things. you are crying out for help but shadowing the help you really need with sideshows of dressing up and dirty talk. you truly need to feel wanted and desired by him. anything you go out looking for is to full fill that need