Spiritually Using Marijuana To Overcome Emotional Trauma?

[jdmarcus59]

I,am bi polar, I went through 4 years of living hell my who life was taken
from me and then I had to go to prison, It takes time to heal, my life today
is not as bad as it once was, but it is not easy eather. do somthing that makes you fell better about your self, but remember life is hard so just hold
on and go with the flow

[EternalOverdose]

i found that chronic is like a band-aid. it helps the injury that lies beneath it because you can no longer see the injury. But as soon as you try to take that Band Aid off your injury gets stuck to it and tears itself open again. Weed forms a temperary form of escapism. But after this is gone it gets stuck to the glue and rips itself open even deeper. As much as weed heals, weed damages.
when you are stressed try getting buzzed instead of baked, cuz then youre brain is still working well enough to patch itself and correct you deppressing thoughts.

[Samwhore]

I wouldn't reccomend smoking. You need to heal from your abuse and smoking will make you forget what happend for a while, but I will not heal you. You need to find a new support system to help you through this. Use a counsler if you must. While it is sweet that you are helping your mom, you need to completely heal yourself before you can help your mother simply for the fact that you are too emotionally weak to handle her. Once you can overcome this battle, you can use this strenght to brush it off your shoulder, and you will feel MUCH better and you can help your mother much better. When you are feeling weak, use your new support system to help you through this, even if it means just writing in a diary/journal. While weed can make you comfortably numb, it may just make you remember all the abuse.

While suffering may cause you pain, it makes you stronger knowing what you have overcomed. Do not blame anything on yourself, never blame yourself, while it may be hard to be optimistic, you need to try find the best qualities in things.

Your mother is suffering just as bad as you are, she just can't realize it.

Pick a mantra, and whenever you are feeling down, find a way to be alone, go outside, breathe, and repeat your mantra, or simply listen to your CD. From what you say, this CD is a goldmine, I wouldn't go anywhere without it if I were you. It's okay to admit that you can't always help your mother, and it is unfair that you have to do this alone, it is a huge burden. I respect you for doing your best.

Having your father away makes it harder as well, not truely knowing if he is okay. Make sure to connect to your father as much as possible, even if you write multiple letters a day. I hope he knows about your situation, for when he returns he can have the right attitude towards you and your mother. Your father can also give you some advice.

I hope all goes well. :hippy:

[suhl]

fuck yes the weed will make it deeper get you a sack and overcome that shit

[smoke it]

a 3 hour escape wont do anything. and on top of that, you can feel like shit and depressed when your high as well.

[Trip06]

man my moms the same way...bipolar, emotionaly unstable, and psycotic. I know man. Fuck all that shit...bringing back memories of a hellish childhood. I say fuck it and blaze up.