Quote Originally Posted by budsmoker only
so today my mother asked me how i would feel if my dad didnt go to my graduation... my response was if he doesnt wanna go, then hes not gonna go.. cant force him to do somethin he doesnt wanna do... well as a lil background on my father he left me and my mom when i was about one yrs old.. so i never knew what its like to have a father, the closest i have ever had would be my grandpa who is there for me whenever i need him and loves me... i was just sitting here thinkin bout how my life would be if i grew up with a father figure to instead of just my mom... my mom did a great job and i love her to death but i was just wonderin... but ne ways it just made me really depressed to think about how im one who has never had a dad there.. i mean he loves me and shit but he has never been there for me like others have... i cant even consider him a dad.. i asked why he wouldnt and my mom said work.. that really hit me hard because it shows whats more important to him... i dunno why im even posting this, i am just wa depressed right now and wanted to get some shit off my chest... he tells me he loves me and i tell him back but i just dont know if i mean it or not... i didnt even know that i would be this emotional bout somethin like this but i am...
im sorry i wasted your time if you read this.. but did any of you out there grow up without a father so to say?? its just i have never thought bout this in my 18 yrs of existence and now that i have it just really got to me...
and please no flamin on my "dad"..
I'm sorry. I know you feel bad. there's no telling what an adult thinks.

I didn't have a dad either really. He died when I was small.