Well the friends that i thought were good friends (ever since i got suspended and had a bad drug problem with one they didn't agree on) they all pretty much abandoned me. At the time i needed help the msot i was just brushed off...
also i got some weed from my bro and i am going to smoke today and hopefully i will feel better while high...just cant get caught by my dad.

and the reason i dont talk about it - is because im ashamed.
I already kinda planned out my "death"....i dont know- but everythings changed. everythings gone to shit. I guess i lost the will to live.

i really...reallllly hate talking about it.