HHJ, I'll probably say that the people that raped you weren't actually gay, but were really just a few guys who were sexually deprived (being in the military and all), and well, you just got unlucky. I know some people that are sex addicts (heterosexual), and I wouldn't be surprised if at the most desperate point in their life, they would end up raping a man if it was their last choice. Having sex with another man is the act of a gay man, but it doesn't mean they were gay.