I'm starting to think that we need to stop celebrating "higher" understandings, and just appreciate understandings. Every so often I, like a lot of our members, come to a new understanding. Not an enlightened one, not one with some great or ultimate answer, just some more perspective and information. However you see your understanding Acouwaila, I'm glad you found it . Keep searching and don't forget to take a breather, otherwise you can cloud your own perceptions obessing over one train of thought (as I myself learned).