sorry you had to go thorugh that man it sounds tramatic....
this year at a school about 15 min away from mine a kid brought an ak47 to school and shot his head off. it opened a lot of people eyes to how depressed kids can be, and that a totaly normal person like the kid who did it was could do something like that. he wasnt even close to being like the kids from columbine or anything he was sort of a dork but he stil had friends and a girlfriend. it was just a shame that it took something like that to open up peoples eyes to the fact that you dont have to look or act crazy to do somethign like that