ok, i'm back....

first and foremost i'd like to apologize to my friends and anyone who took out any concern on me.... the last couple of years have been really rough to me, and i've done a fairly good job, not bringing it to the boards, or pretty much, just keeping it all to myself.. but over the last few months.. i've kinda broke down more... and i can't just keep it quite anymore... i don't have any friends anymore, except for one person and i don't really talk to him anymore (since i quit playing FFXI) so i really dunno where to go wtih my problems....

it's not an excuse for my behavior.... just an explination... and i'm going to try very hard to not do stupid shit... if i have a problem, i still may come here looking for answers, but no more of this over dramatic shit...

as for my brother, i've talked to him, long extensive talks... and we've worked it out... basicly he's goign to do whatever he can, to not go and get enlisted, because the only reasons he wants to is to join, is for money, and to get out of my moms house.. and he has tried to get jobs, he's went all over, and no one's even expressing intrest, which is why he turned to this.... but he's got someone who's willing to take him in until he can find a job, and he's also going to go to some program like job corps... and then if all fails, even tho it still upsets me and i'm not happy with it, he will enlist... and i will support him in it...

i just lost all control because the prospect of losing another brother, was way too much for me to handle... it took alot of thought, and alot of talking, but like i said, i've worked it out now.... if something equally as distrubing happens in the future, i promise to only mention it and get advice, and sleep on the matter before i even begin to think of making a huge deal out of it... i've come to the conclusion excited thinking does no one any good, so i will only begin to think to make a big deal out of anything, after i've had some rational thought time put into it...

again, i'm sorry to my friends, and anyone that worried about me....

glad you are back slip..

Welcome back dude!:S5:

Have a good one!:jointsmile:

welcome back stay HIGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!:S5:

:S3::S2: :S3:

What's good bro...hope all is good with you and the fam...

hey man

I knew you would be back...

cant resist Sammy Snowman can you

i took a piss on snowman... he melted... and his last words were "i can't believe i was defeated by KAM even aunt jemima had my back, and wasn't enough, my life long love dies beside me...."... o.0

no, actually, hes still in the front yard, I think by this tuesday he'll be completely gone

that's because he had one of his friends come stand in for him so you wouldn't be disappointed....

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

i took a piss on snowman... he melted... and his last words were "i can't believe i was defeated by KAM even aunt jemima had my back, and wasn't enough, my life long love dies beside me...."... o.0

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Tsk Tsk,,,ohh the naive

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

that's because he had one of his friends come stand in for him so you wouldn't be disappointed....

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well, IF I must go there...

At least my snowman has friends....

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

i don't have any friends anymore,

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you said it, not me

sam.. you're so mean :( :sadcrying

I dont go to those "levels" unless im forced to...

gotta keep snowmans rep up

you love snowman more than me :sadcrying

i hope he dies of cancer.

of course, I created snowman, Of course I love him....plus, if he got cancer, Id just shovel the tumor out, and replace it with more snow

fine, i'm stealing the army's microwave ray gun... there will be no more snowman, or snow anywhere around to replace him!!!!

HAHAH I FINALLY WIN!

pff, omg, how sad are you, snow is not that hard to make,

I have a snowcone maker, just toss a few ice cubes in there and BAM snow,

not enough to errect a 7 foot snowman, unless you work all night.... and i'll keep melting every bit you make....

HAHAH I WIN!

next step is bomb every single aunt jemima factory in the world....

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

fine, i'm stealing the army's microwave ray gun... there will be no more snowman, or snow anywhere around to replace him!!!!

HAHAH I FINALLY WIN!

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You really don't understand do you??? Sammy makes the body and I make the soul,,,together we can make an army... convert or suffer the consequences...

i am furian, i don't convert... (watch chronicles of riddick if you dont' understand o.0)

i still win.... without a body, a soul is just a ghost.... take out the body, take out EVERYTHING.

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

not enough to errect a 7 foot snowman, unless you work all night.... and i'll keep melting every bit you make....

HAHAH I WIN!

next step is bomb every single aunt jemima factory in the world....

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Its not that hard to stay up all night, theres other snow to help with that....

and bomb every single AJ factory, youll make the world all sticky and then youll really have no friends

i don't need friends, as long as aunt jemima and snowman are dead, i can rest peacfully.... just you wait... you'll see my divine intervention... you'll be as lonely as me.... AHAHHAHAHHAHAHAAHH!

I would be as lonely as you if I didnt have any friends...


oh wait, thats right, I do

no, seriously, we dont need friends in the world, I do better on my own

o.0 fuck that iwant friends >.< they just get harder and harder to make as age goes on, and you go out less and less....

no, you just become harder to please, therefore, people quit trying to be your friends



I am a lone wolf,
people just love me too much
so they think were all friends

i'm not that hard to please...

don't steal from me, don't lie to me, don't use/ignore me... that's about it ;) maybe throw some bud in once in awhile if you want some extra points :D

I dont want extra points, all these people think that im their friend, but really, I only have 2 friends, the only two people I trust, other than that, Im just using all those "friends" for meaningless conversation

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Originally Posted by Samwhore

I dont want extra points, all these people think that im their friend, but really, I only have 2 friends, the only two people I trust, other than that, Im just using all those "friends" for meaningless conversation

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im the same way... except a few of them, are for a place to sleep when im fighting with some one at home,,, a place to watch TV... and a ride to the "store", also a alcohal buyer...

I'm glad you made it through the rough time dear slip- I'm your friend:lovestruck:

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

first and foremost i'd like to apologize to my friends and anyone who took out any concern on me.... the last couple of years have been really rough to me, and i've done a fairly good job, not bringing it to the boards, or pretty much, just keeping it all to myself.. but over the last few months.. i've kinda broke down more... and i can't just keep it quite anymore... i don't have any friends anymore, except for one person and i don't really talk to him anymore (since i quit playing FFXI) so i really dunno where to go wtih my problems....

it's not an excuse for my behavior.... just an explination... and i'm going to try very hard to not do stupid shit... if i have a problem, i still may come here looking for answers, but no more of this over dramatic shit...

as for my brother, i've talked to him, long extensive talks... and we've worked it out... basicly he's goign to do whatever he can, to not go and get enlisted, because the only reasons he wants to is to join, is for money, and to get out of my moms house.. and he has tried to get jobs, he's went all over, and no one's even expressing intrest, which is why he turned to this.... but he's got someone who's willing to take him in until he can find a job, and he's also going to go to some program like job corps... and then if all fails, even tho it still upsets me and i'm not happy with it, he will enlist... and i will support him in it...

i just lost all control because the prospect of losing another brother, was way too much for me to handle... it took alot of thought, and alot of talking, but like i said, i've worked it out now.... if something equally as distrubing happens in the future, i promise to only mention it and get advice, and sleep on the matter before i even begin to think of making a huge deal out of it... i've come to the conclusion excited thinking does no one any good, so i will only begin to think to make a big deal out of anything, after i've had some rational thought time put into it...

again, i'm sorry to my friends, and anyone that worried about me....

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So very happy that you are feeling better and more in control.

My life has been far from a bed of roses too. Many important losses at an early age....unrelenting, unforgiving depression and a thing called transient global amnesia. Plus a host of other fun stuff.
Thankfully, I have a wonderful husband who adores me for all my flaws. Like you have Snookums. :):jointsmile:
If you ever want to talk via aim, let me know and I'll add you. Ok?

:s4:

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

i'm not that hard to please...

don't steal from me, don't lie to me, don't use/ignore me... that's about it ;) maybe throw some bud in once in awhile if you want some extra points :D

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That works for me too. lol

You are sounding good slip!

i appreciate the thought tootsie, but i don't get on aim, or use any messangers...

Walked a fine line, slipped the edge under me
Rise above a suicide, taking it out of me
Got a feeling, it's going far away, yeah
Licking the wounds from yesterday

Gonna fly, taken my time, strip down to nothing
Gonna try, but there's no rest for the wicked

Been through the skin of a dragon a thousand times
In every day I live for you, still I'm not alive
Got a feeling, I'm gonna fall away
Gimme a sign, one reason that I should stay

Gonna fly, taken my time, strip down to nothing
Gonna try, but there's no rest for the wicked
Gonna fly, take my time, strip down to nothing
Gonna try, but there's no rest for the wicked

Are you ready to know just who I am?
Do you think you can make me a better man?
Crack me open, expose me to your ways
Ignorance and arrogance on my way
Oh yea
No rest for the wicked baby!

Gonna fly, take my time, strip down to nothing
Gonna try, but there's no rest for the wicked
Gonna fly, take my time, strip down to nothing
Gonna try, but there's no rest for the wicked


seems these lyrics, make alot of sense, as of recent.