Okay, this is my appology

okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and i dont think ill get very many. so i wanna say im sorry for annoying anybody on these forums for talking about my mom too much or anything like that. i also realized that i will go nowhere in life because my grades are bad. i get d's and f's in highschool, and its my junior year. im 17 years old. i hate my life so much, and i know that i will nvr become wealthy or anything of that sort. i wont have a good job, a pretty wife (or any for that matter) and i wont have kids to continue my gene pool. so....im screwd for life and theres no sense in living any longer just to find out my predictions were true.

sorry again, bye

damn kid, your right life does suck sometimes

instead of give up and die
why not just enjoy the pain
and see where you end up

things change so fast from one day to the next
just hang in there and maybe write down your thoughts
you might be the next kurt cobain

the way i see it , if your already at your rock bottom
and you have nothing to lose than everything should be better from this point on . killing yourself would be a very boring ending to your life

make a better ending and a better story

well, ,,, dont kill yourself,, i have contemplated it sometime, its not worth it for u cannot see what the future holds for u and ur life,, or if there is a future for any of us, but think about it some more, its not worth it,, how about insted of killing yourself,, you should put on the song ladies night on a boombox and have this positioned on your shoulder, smoke some bud and boogie on down your street,,dont kill urself

if i hear that song ladies night
i might just off myself

bad idea

dont listen to that song

suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish...get some counseling...

dude i know exactly how you feel. I have a friend that nobody like because people say he is annoying. His problem is hes too damn hyper all the time. if he would just chill and talk to people normally without pissing them off people would like them better.

And if people say you are annoying then dont even fuck with them anymore, just try to meet new people that have the same interest as you. And since you posting on cannabis.com im sure you wont have a problem finding people that have the same interest as you. :rastasmoke:

Whatever you do dont kill yourself.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. :)

lol... from about 12 on up, i've had a total of 5 friends... 11 and younger, i had maybe 8? it's get lonely somtimes, but i just try to not let it bother me...

sometimes people suck and you just have to ignore them. I didnt have very many friends my last few years of highschool, and it really does get better with time. Right now just focus on school and do your best to get your grades up so you can try to go to a community college. maybe take up a hobby or something that makes you feel good about yourself.

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sometimes people suck and you just have to ignore them. I didnt have very many friends my last few years of highschool, and it really does get better with time. Right now just focus on school and do your best to get your grades up so you can try to go to a community college. maybe take up a hobby or something that makes you feel good about yourself.

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friends are important. being wise about who you allow in your life is even more important.
you are only 17. friends will come. it is ok to have boundries.

dai*ma:stoned:
i got an old friend whose seen me at my worse
she cant tell if i'm a blessing or a curse
but she always shows up when the chips are down
thats the kind of stuff i like to be around;)

as a child i had quite a few friends.
as an adolescent i had no friends.
as a young adult i bounced back and forth between the two.
now i'm an old fart with only a few good friends.

shit happens, things change.
i'm glad now that i didn't off myself during the low points and you will be too.


if not, you can always kill yourself later.
i did.

i love you<3

everything will be alright, do not apolgize for how you feel, its how you feel and you cant control it, hang in there :)

dont stress, i didnt have a single friend in 6th grade. i thought about suicide then, and thinking back on it that would be a pretty shitty end to my young life..

i dont want to die before my first shroom trip either. assuming you havent done them, do you want to either?
what im getting at is theres a shitload more for you to experience. so stop being foolish :D

I know how you feel. Sometimes having those thoughts are unavoidable. However my friend, I feel that dwelling on those thoughts is the absolute worst thing you could possible ever do.

Try to occupy yourself with something. Start reading a book, start working out, go surfing.

You have no friends so your going to kill yourself? Thats being stupid. Dont expect pitty from me when there are people with no mother or father and havent committed suicide.

Yes life can suck and so do people. That is just the way it is sometimes.

You have not pissed me off, so you are okay with me.

Look some people are going to like you, some wont.

So what you may have pissed off a few people here. You may have no friends anywhere. You have no where to go but up.

People on this site are actually pretty forgiving. I have pissed off a few. If you tell them you screwed up and say you are sorry most folks here will give you another chance. If they don't who cares? This is just the Internet.

You might need to look at yourself and try to improve yourself. Honestly looking at who you are can help you start to make changes.

Truth is most people are not worth knowing. But hell they say your real friends you can count on one hand.

I have certainly been where you are. Thought of offing myself several times.

But a few years ago my brother blew his brains out. That changed everything for me. Suicide is a selfish act. My brother did not see beyond his pain to realize that so many others would be effected.

Regardless of who you are someone loves you. My brother hunt my mom and dad, me, his kids and many others.

About a year ago I met my father and we went to the grave yard for another funeral. When he walked by my brothers grave he looked it it and said "What a waist". But within his eyes I could see the pain and hurt that was there.

You cannot hurt yourself without hurting others.

A couple of good friends is better than hundreds of fakes.
We all piss off someone sometimes, it's part of life , those who are petty about it hold grudges for the stupidest reasons.
You only ever realy need you.
Bollocks to what others think of you , what you think of you is more important.
You can be whoever you want to be if you're prepared to go for it and even if you don't get there you can always stand proud and say I gave it my best shot.
I left school with no qualifications but I worked hard and became a very skilled engineer , I earn more than enough and I have travelled far and wide.
I like being me and thats all any of us can strive for, liking ourselves.

PS I have absolutely no reason to dislike you.

could be worse,,,you could be my age and have no friends...

the answer to this is very simple... do nice things for nice people... even if you don't make a friend you will receive a nice gesture back... your life starts with you and you are what you want to be,,, so change and it's all good...

Your potential friend,,,

Skink

bloody, i have barely anyfriends and im annoying. Im alive and everything. i dont do that well in school and frankly Fuck people. i like TO be alone. only 1 friend i love with all my heart and he lives in a diff state as of right now until hes 18.

Fuck high school...it's horrible for everyone, even when you have a lot of friends (I did).

Hold on until you actually get out of high school to judge how much of an effect your grades will have on your entire life. And people who say they don't like you without any explanation why are probably full of shit...I would find THEM annoying.

A few things to think about if these types of thoughts ever come back.

Men, are lone wolves. Women have big support groups of friends but men are generally alone. We have friends and everything, but at the drop of a hot a man can move to another country and make a whole nother group of friends through work or school or whatever.
It's nice to think different when you're young, but in the end this is how it works out. (i'm not generalizing people, there are exceptions to everything, I'm just repeating something a lot of wise male adults have told me that i've found to be pretty true)

Also, People are numbers games. Think about this. Get a peice of paper and go outside. Make two collumns, one for people you like and one for people you dont. Look at every person who walks by. Make a check in either collumn. Don't think about what kind of person they may be, judge them entirely upon their exterior. Hooked nose? Ugly clogs? Stupid brand name sweatshirt? Everyone thinks like this. Notice how many people you actually end up making a check for in the good judgement box.
1 in 5? 1 in 10?
This means that on a very beginning impression, only one in ten people do you like. Works the same for you my friend.

Just put out what you'd like to receive and eventually your life will make sense. If you want caring, devoted, active friends, then be caring, devoted, and active with them.

Also, NEVER, EVER, EVER kill yourself.
I want you to REALLY think about this one.
Have you ever been sad and then something makes you happy?
Your negative moods LIE to you. They whisper little deceptions that have no basis in logic at all. Always remember that your unhappiness is temporary, that the lows are just moments in time, that in the big picture of things, they give you strength and teach you how to be optimistic about life.
I don't think I would have learned how to be self-reliant or love life like I do if I never became suicidally depressed. It taught me an immense amount about myself, and life.

Suicide is STUPID my friend.
Think of how much fun you're going to have in a few years when you go to college and people have grown up and matured and are generally more accepting. Or if you're REALLY in the dumps, just think about how much chemically induced pleasure you're going to recieve from your drug expirementation. This train of thought isn't very healthy, but it's better than suicide.

Something else I want you to do as well.
Go to school tommorrow. And instead of focusing on all the people that have made you feel negative about yourself,
be patient, calm, and look around the classroom. Think about all the people who have been friendly to you. Even if you might perceive them as losers or unintelligent or "the fat chick". THOSE people are REAL. Unless you're a total inverted loner, these people are going to exist for you. They may only be acquaintances, but they're there, and they're friendly. Talk to them. Find something in common. Meet their friends, becuase friendly people generally make friends with other friendly people.
And finally, just be yourself, but be a little reserved at first.
Smile and laugh at their jokes and share a story.
Eventually you're world is going to brighten.

Never give up.

And never forget how boring it was to not be born.
Isn't life GREAT?! Breathing! Sleeping! Smoking pot!
Feeling healthy! Making yourself dinner, choosing from all different types of tastes and being hungry and then sitting down and loving yourSELF!

http://video.google.com/videoplay?do...26325041057058

Watch this and count your blessings.

I think eveyone goes through a stage some point in highscool that is just like yours. I did. It can be very confusing, depressing, and frustrating, its something that we learn from and kinda like a right of passage. Once you get through this funk things will seem alot better. You just have to get motivated to better your self and your grades. You will graduate highschool and go on and have a wonderful life with a family and good job, you just have to want it enough.

Life is a gift and there are too many people who have theirs cut short. So live life every day with no regrets and to the best of your ability. Killing yourself wont make anything better, if anything it will make it worse for the loved ones that you left behind. When you wake up in the moring just look at yourself in the mirror and (I know this sounds stupid but its works.) and tell yourself that you decide how your life is going to be and wont settle for anything less.

Human emotion is like the weather. Theres cold days, hot days, rainy days, gloomy days, sunny days. But its always changing. Its temporary. Sometimes storms last longer than others.

And remember, theres always sunshine after rain.

dont be a selfish self pitying prick. my advice is to try to do something about it

i know your down l3loody, but there's always someone who has it much worse.

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i know your down l3loody, but there's always someone who has it much worse.

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And knowing that someones in more pain than me always cheers me right up!! :buzz_saw:

im at this point in my life also, everyday all day i sit around smoking thinking about what the hell im supposed to do in life and always these thoughts race around my head bouncing off the wall's and the only thing i can think of is too shoot myself in the dome to stop it all....i always say life is hard and death is easy but god didnt put me here so i can later on end my life so i keep on keeping trying to find my place, god has a place for us all.

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That is by far the WORST thing you can tell someone who's suicidal. Please, don't say this to people who are emotionally unstable, things like that only make them worse. They need help, the last thing they wanna worry about is shutting up to make everyone else happy.

All I can say is, an objective mindset can help you. Find out what makes you annoying. Just straight-up ask: It'll take people off-guard, but as long as they don't hate you you should get some straight answers.

Then work on just changing. Get a haircut, spend a day reading and have a go at things, rejuvanated.

I know it feels like there's no escape or chance for betterment now, but there always is. Change is always an option. Just figure out what you can do to better yourself, you'll soon have new friends and things will be OK.

And this comes from someone who was gonna kill themselves 6 months ago. I'm feeling great now, so trust me, it's possible.

And the calls for counseling are another good thing, I know it's hard to start but most clinical psychologists can really help you.

seriously though dude everyone feels like that sometimes. ive felt like that before.
sometimes i swear i have no real friends except my best friend.
if you dont have a job i would suggest getting one because a few people i know made a lot of friends where they work and they hang out on weekends n stuff.
also if you plan on going to college (you can get into college with c's and d's) you can definately make a lot of new friends there too.

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Originally Posted by surreys princess

suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish...get some counseling...

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Yeahhh.. that's probably the worst thing that you could have said with the possible exception of "grow up, you emo faggot." Please don't say stuff like that unless you know what you're talking about. Thanks.

These thoughts are normal, Bloody. A lot of people have them. Remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. For me, High School fucking sucked until I started smoking. Not gonna lie. Then I got a lot more outgoing and started talking to people. It's odd that people think that you're annoying.. seems like you may be trying a bit too hard, or you may just have some growing up to do. That's entirely possible.

Wait until college. Those shitty cliques more or less dissolve once you get to college, and then you can start getting a lot more friends... because everyone comes from a different place, different socioeconomic statuses, (statusi?).. and you simply can't have that with High School. So everyone is the same, and you're probably a little bit different.. so they treat you with hostility.

I mean.. if you're doing something that could be construed as annoying.. by all means, stop. You're not going to get friends that way. That's really all that I can think of now, good luck. Keep on talking about it, that's a great way to get stuff like this off your chest.

(by the way.. don't give a fuck what people think about you on an internet site. There's a lot of dicks out there, and frankly some people just enjoy making fun of others when there's no possibility of a backlash.)

Just my two cents.

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okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and i dont think ill get very many. so i wanna say im sorry for annoying anybody on these forums for talking about my mom too much or anything like that. i also realized that i will go nowhere in life because my grades are bad. i get d's and f's in highschool, and its my junior year. im 17 years old. i hate my life so much, and i know that i will nvr become wealthy or anything of that sort. i wont have a good job, a pretty wife (or any for that matter) and i wont have kids to continue my gene pool. so....im screwd for life and theres no sense in living any longer just to find out my predictions were true.

sorry again, bye

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dude, to put it simply, life is hard, but u gotta atleast try...

friends come and go, but u will always stay true, u don't need to be wealthy, and a good job?? wtf is a good job anyway?? its called work for a reason... i dont have great qualifications either, but to me a job is a job, they come and go.... your only 17, how do u know you wont find a great girl that loves you?
stop looking for love and let it find you by itself,

nothing in life is a sure thing, make the best of what u got and MAKE yourself happy, others will notice this, and like it...

dont just live life... be alive with it

Peace and good will :jointsmile:

So where the heck is the OP???!!!:(

And DAMMIT! Suicide IS selfish as selfish as it comes sometimes.
I am very familiar with suicide on a very personal level so I do what what I am talking about.

Suicide takes care of a short term problem. I am not talking about a terminally ill person comiting suicide. I'm talking about healthy young people who have momentairly lost hope. Death is forever and so are the after effects on the survivors. They end up in a living hell til the day they die.


Here is an old song



Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

That.........

suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...



The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say....................


The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat..........



The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...


A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.



Wonderful song as far as I'm concerned!

the common mistake of socially awkward kids to find a crew is that they often are exaggeratedly outgoing when they try to make friends. Take it easy, be the cool relaxed and unflustered guy you are within. Most of all find the kids you like not the ones you think everyone else likes.

What are some things you like to do that make you happy? i love movie marathons, they make me happy. it's the simple things.

You need to work on yourself before you work on friendships. cuz nobody wants to be friends with a suicidal guy, you know what i mean?

when people hang out with you, they want to hang out with the happy you, think about how you make people around you feel. are you draining their energy? are you overbearing or just too much maintenence?

i know these are alot of questions, but in order to improve your mental wellbeing you need to ask yourself these questions and more often then not, the answers are quite simple. no one here can solve your problems, but you know, even though theres flaming and light arguments, we're generally good and friendly people here.

my mind plays tircks on me all the time, jerking my emotions around and such. but then i realise i'm internalising all my thoughts when i should just get up and go... as in, stop thinking about how much your life sucks and just live life.

You need to harden the fuck up boy.

Life is hard. Deal with it.

I would be more nice, but im not in the mood.

im sorry that ur life is that way,,
but in reality,
there are ppl far worse off than u...
thinkin of suicide over not having friends? r u kidding me?
yea its hard being the loner sometimes..but if a thing so little as this will have u contemplating on suicide...then u just arnt ready for the REAL world man...it gets a lot worse if things such as this bother u to this extent....wow..man...seek professional help...cuz yea...it seems u r very weak and have no will powrr...go find help NOW

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You need to harden the fuck up boy.

Life is hard. Deal with it.

I would be more nice, but im not in the mood.

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I was starting to wonder if I was the only person on this damn board with a grip on reality and life. Everyone is always so understanding and forgiving and supportive. Some kids need a kick in the ass. I have never once in my life felt sorry for myself. For some, i can tell, thats Job 1.

In truth, I don't know if anyone had this explained to them. People die everyday. They get run over while on their motorcycles, they die from cancer, carnival accidents, old age....all sorts of shit. There are 6 billion people on this big ass earth. Noone cares more about yourself than you. Only you can help prevent forest fires and only you can get yourself out of the bottomless pit you are in. Everyone has had a time in their life where they felt like they sat back and watched the world pass them by. Well get over it, life is long and hard. I don't understand how such a young person could be so mentally clouded that they cannot see past their petty little situations...and jump off a building.

Everyone has their problems. Right now I have to find some $$$ to pay my electric bill. If your worse problem is you cant find a friend, get your ass off the computer and go find one....there are 6 billion people on this rock.

with little wing and valkyrie,Life is a long and winding road(Beatles).Your in a pothole right now and you need to get out.Don't fuckin fret ,eventually the sun will shine again my friend.Been there ,done that.Tommorows another day...Make stuff happen, instead of whining.Get a fuckin backbone and be the man that You are.Finally ,repeat these words to yourself every morning"any day above gound is a good day":clap:* Hippy motivational speaker at your service*(live in a van down by the river).lol...1st post, peace:jointsmile:

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What you people with the choke hold on life seem to forget is that not everyone has a pair of vice grips. People get down to the point where they can no longer get themselves out on their own. If you think that all he needs is a kick in the ass, then you've obviously not been there and have no right to assume that's all he needs.

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I can work with this this analogy.

When i was young, I didn't have vice grips, I had some tweezers. I gained some confidence in my younger days, realized that I am my own man. I can succeed without anyones help. I am more resourceful than I give myself credit for.
Then I graduated to pliers. I got down for a while during the beginning of college. I came back better than ever.....graduated to vice grips. I am now self sufficient, plenty of people around me, exciting times, unknown (but bright) future, alot of good pot. I realize that noone is my boss. Noone is trying to 'get me down'. The man sucks, but I won't let him 'get me down'. I was once one of those kids who listened to 'authority', which helped me by guidance.....but now I realize that we are all people. We all have the same issues and shortcomings. I also realized that no fairy comes out of the sky to help you out in tight situations.

Now I have me a fuckin Pipe Wrench. If anyone threatens my alpha ass, I'll beat em with it. If someone bags on me, I'll beat em with it. Consequence? Everyone who knows me knows I have a pipe wrench. I am not afraid of my shadow, and I make clear and confident decisions.

Get yourself a pipe wrench and walk around with your head high and confident. You gain respect when you wield a pipe wrench.

Well the tool was an analogy. I think you are mistaken if this 'kid' is having a rough time. So his grades are bad...he can't buy a friend....he probably smells and noone likes that. Thats not a rough time. His life sucks because he wasn't able to gain the confidence he needed. He isn't even in the real world yet. My mother died when I was 20...rough, yeah kind of....but I pulled through it no problems. Do you really think his problems are worth holding his hand and telling him he is special? No. He is just some punk kid who is feeling sorry for himself. He doesn't need a fairy, he doesn't need a psych evaluation. He simply needs a kick in the ass.

Btw, give me 5 seconds with my pipe wrench and those hands are gonna be broken hands.