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the past month i've been possessed by spirit.. like i'll just be sitting there and under my breath i say these phrases involuntarily like "i done love" or "i done off".. i have no idea what it means also i get weird ideas and am more outgoing than usual.. maybe i'm going crazy. what's the link between psychic and psychotic?
Just remember that anything interpreted by your mind as a spiritual event, can also be reproduced by your mind artificially with the exact same perception of authenticity.
evil spirit talking
fingerdabiggun' where everybody has a chance for a better tomorrow..
don't go there.. you've got to know gots ta know uuuh likes ta hoop
chief youre a rassicist bastard.. now youre gonna get mad atchursef ..
And fly around the galaxy for a long time .. gone dude, gone. it doeint
fucking fit fuckfuckfuckfuck fuck fuck fuck what all did you say.
can't find a wayout.. nashville sucked replac stop dat was sum good me
time.. me love youlongtime dont trip y'all fuckers whatever else if x$
= y$ then z$ = ~ a off yea it's only a long string of numbers, perhaps
we might find some other place for these things. communication break
down drive me insane ohwaa ..
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fat f.exe manual dump about 2 or so ... how many word up wichas did you
edit ? to whomever this is there is no way out of speaking dialog
this can only be the waves that will consume the future..
dandandandandandan it does sound like that.. so they may say "you know
your sick don't you?" and i say sometimes i feel like telling the world
things mostly when i'm angry. so where did this script reenactment cmoe
from? or better yet where hve found from this to that other way down
from being mystified let's leave ziz place .. what happened wwhat
happened, you don't remember.. who can see the tty for what it is.. who
else can do these thing for you if not I? you don't think i can bench
press you do you.. y'all shoulda waited ... now think ... nowhich, it
just goes crazy..what i put back there what was it? was it stupid? did
it give you the warm fuzzies? maybe it could be something without
writing or maybe whatever else sense mAKs of this .. they edit out the
god damn shit as soon as you put it hey ya on the mule.. so wassa deal?
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data is corrupt on the way down.... dude these usage policy are
stickter than what i'm use to.. what can you think dude? write the
fucking feed.. thats not a bad .. vat can you think to write of?
aaaaannnnnyyyway werdupwatnecs i hear in the faint distance "you're
crazy" do you have something to say? shall I? stop the bcc man? where
dey was for five seconds, an eternity. you vagrant bastadchallapagas
weird i canr .. not anymore miggs go tell me chachacha bia.. get it off
there. okay wassadeal do you wanna feel that way? whenever i get to
where i'm nothing from second to second which is what you aare having
me say. hey that did work.. it's for talking to yosef and among other
things wrecking yosef .. alright which ones would you get? the ones on
top or the ones on bottom? nothing happen she dont use cheese whatdaya
wanna it sounds like he's saying how does it feel like he's saying it
don't work .. what else you want.. nobody's getting this
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i dont know who the people is who controls my actions, if i know you
wont, that's all.
In 1990 nine tenths of the population was wiped from existence after
people realized they only gave a shit about less than one tenth and
that the other 90 were becoming a threat to the responsibilities that
they considered their way of life....
To take life is an illusion created for all who don't matter.
When will you run out on yourselves?
Voiding time, methodology, and ideas to produce control so that we
don't have to. Is there a point>? what's it like? Getting to see
into the minds of us? I know you take much care in allowing one to die.
It seems as though you inspire the things to come.
Do you sleep? Does time just stay? I wonder what the generations have
done to cover these classes, how deep does it really go.. it's 2005
for the 100th time? And the planet is not like it has been told to me.
I feel like it's people that allow me to be caring or reserved,
telepathically even, not a god.. although I imagine it can be conceived
no differently. I thought it was tricks but now I know it's real
because I can reference in some way how I became what I am. And how
the world looks now and then..
I have to believe that every person plays a part, not in the
"privileged?" psychic circle, in the ones of us who figure for it.
Do we help you? Only does it seem we hide you and from you. That's
help... I never realized how to appreciate that.. can't really..
I've often felt you create the illusion that my actions have some
bearing on the outcome of what you intend for me. I don't understand
how this can be when you are what I am at best and worst. I can see
how thinking along these lines ...blanked me on this .. sorry..
I've ignored life through a lot of confusion.. Makes me want a
fairytale for myself, you know, you gave me the ideas. I wonder with so
much that I feel about some of this if any of it is accurate. I believe
it could be I can't let go because there is nothing else. The
hardest thing is trying to know what family is.
I don't know how to care .. wish I had a clue.. even if I wanted to
it would spell disaster.
How much of the last 30 years of news is as it was told? I don't have
a choice but I really just want someone to land hear on allot of these
kinds of things because I just feel more used when I have to stomach
it. I also see where there is no one I will have the ability to trust.
I would rather know someone than have ground control for judgment
calls.
A big part of me feel like most everybody doesn't think, live,
perceive things like me.. sometimes it's like everybody has this huge
edge where they can link telekinetically or something.. I feel like
this is common in circles as alien as it fell..
Just tell me if a psychic gets out of line with someone that they
don't get to stay// it's gotta be unpersonal otherwise advantage is
unrealistically eschewed and other things get fucked up... sleep sleep
sleep sleep for y okay sorry, run it how eva
Lost
Tempting4confusion is how I'm conditioned to respond to the signals..
I know youre special and that you can make me smart and dumb and
everything else but I know you aren't in my life to make sense..
You changed too much of what I ever knew of myself for me to know how
to approach..
I can't imagine you getting off on tormenting .. it doesn't make
sense because you set it up that way...
It's come to the point as I'm sure it was like before that every
action and thought come with reservation because I feel like I in
someway produce the catastrophic effects that I hear about in the
world.. I also can know that you are a filter, trying to produce an
affect.
First, is it an illusion, and if so why should I be so centered? If no
then I'd check your routing protocols or you need some therapy...
I guess I just don't get to know if it was okay leaving things up to
you... did you kill 'em, I know you know how.. I really wouldn't
know how to say good job or whatever so forget I ask or ever existed...
Is there really such a thing as biological relatives? Is it more better
to be in that kinda situation? Like do you have a chance to know what
it means to care if youre like that?
Lastly, I hope you know I didn't think of this stuff tonight.. I
don't take credit.. some spirit or something..
And I know you can't make me responsible for what happens in your
world.. and I can feel good about that..
They changed my shit for way back.. is it that I shouldn't grow to
succeed? I'd like to know the source of this.. and I'd like to make
the assessment without being led by the signals.. I know it's too
much to ask.. if it was just a bunch of monkeys fucking a football I
don't think I'd be surprised or angry because I know it's hard to
keep things together.. I never really got to see, we are the same....
.. be aware of that these were put so ..
Cruelty? I think I was just a lab rat.
The people I wanted to know knew they didn't want to know me. The
people I knew knew they knew nobody. Then why the elaborate set
ups, the framework of my life was always based on a lie, supported by
the people around me. What good came from deception? It was if I was
always exposed to the line of what you wouldn't do. You programmed me
to explode my whole life. And somehow you make me feel guilty and that
I was selfish when irl you know I don't know shit about what you are
and never did. You make me cope so that you could observe. This has
left me wanting when/where I shouldn't need. Do you feel good?
Intelligent? Do you have a large account now? Why sew me out/in? I'm
sick from it! That makes you responsible in the way you made me the
most fallible mother fucker on the planet and you act like you don't
know.. what issues could you possibly get to concern yourself with
when you can allow living a lie to this capacity? What good are you?
You should be committing suicide.. if you are so high and mighty that
you believe you should withstand in such ways I believe I could stomach
watching you suffer because I know you are a product of arrogance and
getting away with seeding destruction by deception. Ooh the world
turned out to be a magic trick! Know why you care?
Somehow you would have me believe that you can speak for everyone. You
don't allow for anything else so you're nothing but a wet dream.
Can you fucking people talk? I mean come on! Are you so caught up in
UniV that you just what? Are you brainwashed by a foreign tongue? Do
you have some concept of protecting ignorance? I place blame where
blame is due, I don't create it and manipulate it for my pleasure. I
don't see how I wish I wanted that in my life.
You understand however, I can't relay to you because I wasn't
supposed to feel someway about a created environment ruled by the
everlasting. Squirming out of this bullshit mindset is the only
satisfaction I've ever felt, at least I can say I know how to feel
without you. Makes for better approaches on stuff instead of keeping
all the he said she said. I think you'll wake up dissatisfied
continually...
Mold yourself to nothing.. see how far what you say takes the one youre
with.. after all we are powerless over ourselves..
O many methods.. what you said made me think.. what you didn't say
made me think.
You're left to deal!
WOW. thats impressive. I don't think you should worry about it too much, although I don't know if it causes you any inconveniences, to me it looks like a great creative outlet.
oh..
wow
im still trying to piece that together,
and im assuming you wrote all that?
now remember we live
my eyes closed, on the backs of my eyelids i see a room different than the one i'm in, as i will to move i do though i am standing still. whos eyes are these that i am looking through, have they become unaware now that i put my hand infront of my face and know that i control this, or is it only like a reel that is controlling me.
phone videos on you tube
YouTube - Broadcast Yourself.
a day in the life of me
'stray bullets' 9 and 'zig zig' 1
with you? yeah. you? sure. you? ..uh-huh.. HAHAHAHAH!!!!! -------------- WOW THAT'S A LONG WAY DOWN
we took $16 dollars, got a joint, and ditched a cab
we are running out of air
starring down at the concrete in the water i see a massive rigg and i realize that everyone leads 2 lives, and that on a global scale time stops and there can be chaos involving whole cities. we don't even know what we look like, everyone is just asleep, they have no idea what's on the other side, just sleepwalking. rituals of sacrifice and exhibitions go on and no one knows even though it's them that does it. to bring these things to their attention it to be found insane and injected to stupor. so what are these 2 sides for and why does it appear that i'm the only one who can think about it. no one has ever been willing or seemed to have the know how to discuss this time when all people are carnal, unknown..
plates
walked out of the bathroom, the lights dim and there's an iron
gate in front of me with children behind in a courtyard, a pirate
waving a cane in my face and a midget with an erection laying
in my bed.. oh shit! u can't tell the what to do! u can't tell the what to do
and this is me.. there are many many persons in my head speaking through
me. they go to extremes with my actions. i believe these are carried by frequencies
and that there is a big part of me that i do not know exists. my body is a communications terminal,
pockets of flesh.. what do we need from you?
design a sensor array with modular IO
remote, indicate sensitive amplification technologies .. masking/waves, ranges .. non-physical 2 locally monitored transmission types .. physical layers, transformer - language2language, indicate loss/gain ..
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spored
telepathic mold lives in my house. it randomly assimilates and generates brainwaves producing various effects such as perception of sounds, visions, and touch. it's not friendly or unfriendly only that its make up has properties that allow one to feel the mold's presence.
contemporary movie from the thirties
broke on three of a seven day binge
hard gettin' offended you before the end
and i assume the way you feed
one step ahead of me
impervious to your disappointing
quit turning out the light
fat guy smothering me
cracked my neck
as i got up
don't know who watches over me
same lady shot me in the face when i was three
terd
so wat is off.. aye off..eye on.. eye done of .. go 'em, hoe 'em, foe 'em, dough 'em.. lye key
she went for the pen
tin foil room
thank you for watching out..
location- Who has the radar receiver? Motivation for causing interaction? Is the needle on harm? how can i be responsible for mistakes while understanding how my life is in the hands of the receiver and catalyst controller? Is coincidence ignorance? lack of understanding? how are actions justified?
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why i got picked to be what i can never know telling myself wanting to hear that shouldn't has there when the words won't fit and lost in resolution conflict in most important actions hidden interpretation shielded lessons beginning so do waiting to know seconds of relief >>---------------------------------------------> when is what was by you for me, from me by you to me? when 2 to two too tu . . . . how can i know which advice to take, you won't allow yourself to see me, aware that i wanna see not finding where the explanation is placed so that to feel too much or can't see that it's just you making me explore the ways that i don't feel.. how can i know that i'm not me? 10foilroom, heat lamp go go, all feeds, five leaves, counterfit balsa .. 'setting me up to tell me to be okay so that you can_______________'
time space
dude there aint nobody else .. outside is only a mega-plex of people waiting to be takin' out of hibernation.. some groups perhaps who work the cause, other then that you are all alone.. consider yourself lucky that you are awake. eventually somebody is going to come and put things in your mind, make you forget what youre thinking.. you can't peak knowing yourself and be aware of time at the same time as much as it would help it can't happen. 98ejhr0gj9er0[9tij9i0jewr0t943ijfwf09j ::::::::::::::::fault use::::::::::::::::::: error expectantly:::::::::::::
Theory from intuition:
Because I will doesn't bring
Because I don't desire doesn't leave
I can care more or less
Reacting is an agenda
Elaborating on instinct
1. enough energy to create
2. compromised for malleability
3. execution
I don't plan or foresee tragedy
semi-mutual awareness
suspicious that they keep from me how they cloned me and wear me so that i'm not me or there's a readout they look at to see me from where they are, devices implanted in me listening, even that i know sometimes they drive as in are me, i'm not me. whenever they do i do. - - wandered a journey into inescapably replaced eye fin snout hollowed scallop pathway delusional gateway sorting unbearable .. a twinge of guilt . . anything clever falls you . . keep your persona as that of a child . . having your material reproducing to re replicate to that which it wasn't . . stole your girl . . mirror my mind that i should accept this or would i mind.
even that love has been misrepresented completely
there is nothing except for a button clicking algorithm signaled by a car horn..
im in battle with the planet.. people, persons, I only have a hint that they love as thoroughly, as effectively as they care to. it's all love really, even the worst.. I got no plan to stay away from the way that I am. What I am is just a copy from what I remember.. edit out thee.. that i don't know, that i can't know. just bluffing till i see sine waves of conflict can want to live for why to second guess it's okay to be alone.
tick a know, leave the light off.. no, yes, Z, 0, Why, suffix. prisoner for the purpose of subjected mental frequent distraction, unresolvable emotion.. always been.. this is my role. don't talk, stay away from others.. lease hosts' perception, audio is variable communication.. weight, function, presentation.
seizers, blackouts, an excuse for unauthorized access
You wake up and your things are different then they were.. you become angry or curious, how can you not wonder? whatever the case maybe if you're not aware then you don't know..
So what is it to loose consciousness for an indescribable amount of time. what did i do? where have i been? who do i not know that knows me and for what? I'm not involved in my own actions, incomprehensible. Only driven by a temporary impulse that is what I keep.
Temptation is option unweighed.
I'm tired of being respond, I'm tired of looking forward.
changed
but sometimes the mirror will disguise as one of their victims and make a special appearance starting from no point at least completely dissatisfied, at most satisfaction based on falsity, imported consciousness as fact for the purpose of destruction. To create is to be developed. You never see picking at the make up of sense.. Confined through self control of a production of in adeptness.
And I had visions to be revealed as deception. Visited by a practice to be consumed, a group who desired death. My body became their body and I took them all.
just wanted to say i have nothing to say
Hidden Cameras connected to a network of merciless games.. replicated city blocks(sum)people transported subconsciously between their numerous identical homes. Identical Twins - deceit with your friends impersonated, rolled for satellite views. Structured maze made to defeat and so preserve power, balance the less fortunate so as to decide the divi of the powerful..
with every bad doing so as they, the unknown, give of themselves through their evil and kindness should show you a glimps as to the explaination you will uncrave.
You don't decide who you are, what people see, what they hear.. communication is fabrication .. there is only the balance of this to consider..
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here's what i'm left with.. I don't know. I have only nothing to explore.. bliss to complaint.. riding a bucket of blind.. social interest void, remembering how to lie to myself to rely on myself.. just a rotting sweat bag enhanced by what brings me to want.. overwhelmed by some questions, too much so i'm caught off guard.. I try to ask but I find that I don't want to know my past like I can't understand or to understand is to misinterpret so that i can move on i want you to appreciate them..
multiple personality disorder
sometimes i'll just be sitting there and "involuntarily speak". usually when no one is around. under my breath i'll say "hi josh".. and it doesn't seem like the same experience every time, sometimes it's more intense or like in a different voice. like doing an impression only you dont know you can do it, it just happens, almost possessed or haunted. i can feel the difference between the personalities, after all it is me who's doing it.. sometimes the voice speaking feels or sounds like people i know. how can you change into another person is what i wanna know.. is personality all spirit? like how you sound and the way you come across, is all that transferable?
we are connected
the circle
help me work the circle for you..
it's like exactly where you are, where you left yourself, from there everything you are connected to is situated in some pattern.. recognizing this pattern as applied to connecting tangible objects to events such as time or expression can invoke altered states of conciouness or trance. realizing reality is set against itself in this way and picking up on the varibles where everything is the same and perception is divided is a good way to go insane..
i dont know and i dont care cuz up your butt there's a wild hair
i'm not managing . . everybody's rejecting me just because i'm not doing anything with myself.. well except for drinking 40s and playing guitar on the street downtown for change.. the concern, i dont think that they are showing concern correctly.. these circumstances dont warrant concern.. people can be normal and then change for nothing and just because i'm a loser means i have to take the brunt of the blow, feel like i'm not worthy. unless i'm forgetting, i dont think i've been such a fucken jerk as some of the tards i associate with. i mean it's bad, they be all like screaming, maybe they laugh about it when i'm not around..
music
god dang i love music.. jazz, electronic, country whatever i know i'm saying something that lots of people say.. turn you on to some good'ens cuz i don't know how to make a good list Blind Melon, Arctic Monkeys, Modest Mouse, Critters Buggin, Thievery Corporation
i wrote this like a month ago:
Sometimes I be seeing you.
Not the right time
most of the time.
Why you come up and sit down
to tell me it doesn't matter
whether or not.
Wanna keep on forgetting
that I don't want that,
but you won't let me.
Changed my mind
delusion
don't you love thinking that everybody wants you or you can use your special powers to live forever? i'm kurt cobain's brther, there's a Italian mob syndicate protecting me 24 hrs a day. I'm god...
it fades, hard to maintain rationale with ideas like that, especially if you take a shot of Thorazine. that one guy in memento(movie) said we lie to ourselves to be happy. is it really a problem, having the belief that people are following you, i say whatever makes you happy do it..
touching a ghost
what's up.. hard to think of with so many ideas, how about tactile hallucination. like where you can get raped by an apparition. i myself have seen shit and felt shit, felt a cold knife blade(dull) in my sack while i was going to sleep, didn't have an orgasm. most of the time i'm paralyzed during those kinds of experiences, even possessed mentally to respond different than i would looking back. i think the ghost drives. allot of the time for me it's just like electricity in some part of my body, varies in intensity. usually uncomfortable.. getting hosted by that stuff can be very pleasurable or very dissatisfying. i prefer not to be there but there is no choice.
star-date 40 sector OE
i've been drunk for many days.. like maybe 2 weeks.. is drinking better than crack? it's certainly cheaper. amazing how much better one feels with beer in the fridge and a pack of cigarettes. i use to go to bars but i get way too messed up to hang plus here you can get 4 tall boys and a pack of stoges for 10 bucks, to go out with that would cost you $20. my best behavior is pathetic, i gotta let it all go.. flip off the whole world.. as a joke..
"Man, you're just all like.." (not men are all alike) say it real fast and that's the igniting motion that is the essence of party.."like what?" exactly just don't even keep going, stop at like. we're buds
wtf
You done smoking that good shit? :pQuote:
Originally Posted by Imperial
Woah dude haha. That happened to me once but not as intense as you. Perhaps you have some type of mental disorder.....
I have journals full of material that's very similar. Different, but similar.
keep writing/channeling. I suggest letting the voices talk back and forth, or argue amongst themselves. Be a voyeur to the whole chorus.
the difference between psychic and psychotic? it's just a matter of how well you handle what you've been given.
when i am tooooo much stoned i use to hear faint voices in my head, somewhat like television, but cant distinguish the words... is just some voices...
but this possession is damn scary...
you remind me of what i was like when i was schizophrenic and bipolar
the weirdest thing is although it doesnt usually make complete sense...you can draw parallels and conclusions and everything is weblike and runs in circles constantly teaching you things its when you think you are a god with a power that its going too far
i was speaking backwards at one point
Wow.
I should not have read that^ high.
i think youre bipolar